不懂应该说什么...

就快过完整整一年了...
最近,我用了一部分的钱,购买了在音乐界数一数二最好音质的Sony NWZ A845.

我买16GB,4年warranty,才RM780.普通价都有八百,才1年warranty.还好以前我曾经工作时为那公司破了前所未有的记录,所以他们才给我长期的优惠.当然,因为它出色的音效,有noise canceling,对我来说,这已经是物超所值.
现在,我还打算买相机,想要重新学过所有的基本知识.

至于最近,有人问我感情问题.坦白说,我还很喜欢她,我自己也尽力控制,可是,我不知道为什么我的脑海一直都有她的影子...昨天,我也有梦到她...

放不下手

差不多三个星期了,一眨眼已经是九月.这段时间我为了减低自己对喜欢的人的感觉,用工作麻痹自己,不断找人招生意.坦白说,我还是放不下那种感觉,只好随缘...
不仅如此,我不断查询关于相机的特色,拍照的技术,补回自己长期疏于练习造成的弱点.这其实是我看不过我的同事们拿所谓好品质的相机拍出非常差效果的照片,还说拿来留念以及做powerpoint,这些给我感觉到倒是拿来献丑才真的啦!就算我的能力已经退步,也根本不可能拍到劣质效果的.我要趁这次机会告诉大家,如果没有真正拍摄技术的,请别拿高级相机来献丑!
这段时间也赚了一些钱,加上发薪及bonus,我相信我不仅能拿到好相机,更可以参加拍摄训练以及活动,更能藉此有附送手机,也是难得的运气,希望能赚得更多!

My emotional...

Seems i had slightly controlled my emotion, recently... I know, i shouldn't feel sad for deceased of the person either i know or i dunno. No matter how, i had to face the fact, and be strong. The world still have a lot of things i had to finish. I'm really sorry to let everybody worried of me. Thanks to Ryan, Siew Chor, Chan Hwa, and a lot...
Last time, when i used to be a children, i had forced to avoid everything, due to my body is sensitives to many stuff, it makes me worry a lot... Until now, i know, i can't simply take some drinks which contain condenses milk while in morning. When i form1, few of my friends always "banned" me from drink tea or milo in early of morning. Time passed really fast... But now, i had nothing to protect myself, thus, i must protect myself with my own hand.
I won't do things recklessly anymore, I'm promise i'll do things even more carefully...

so many to update...

long time didnt update... this few week quite moody. well, somebody had passed away. she so young, yet she had failed to reached her 19th years old birthday and died on robbery incident. it happened at johor... well. i dunno much of the innocent girl. but, i heard a lot story related to her. it makes me sad, as i heard of she had sacrificed innocently as bullet had hit her head. when i read her blog, it sadden me again. tat makes my hand tinggling, eyes feel hot, the tears even comes out from my eyes... i hate criminal! criminal had took a few of my friend's life! according to her blog, she had tried to rebuild her spirit and start whole new life as her bf broke up with her. wat she wrote at last post, 29th of may, the last sentence

我会努力忘记一切

过我的新生活

yet, she failed to started her whole new life... she must be sad and afraid... rest in peace... even though i dunno u, but, hoping u be happy in the other world...

in the same time, i had new thought related of friendship. i think, i had used to be have a lot friends, but, i lost them due to my matter. i wrote my new motto. u may copy it, as it might used to be happend with u.

大家，友谊的来很不容易，真挚的友情更是难得。如果你的身边有一个非常关心你，对你很好的朋友，请别随便讨厌他，尽力接受他。我们都明白，有时他的关心和热情或许会令我们反感，这也许是我们不习惯给人家关心，但是，我们也不应该因为不喜欢人家好的一面而讨厌他。必须知道，我们人类的性命也非常短，得到朋友的关心，鼓励，是我们的福分，我们应该要好好珍惜人家的关怀，我们之间的友谊。不然，难听一句，如果他/她有一天去世了，我们将永远得不到他/她的祝福，我们也会痛失一个难得的一个好朋友；如果生前因为他/她的热情导致朋友关系生疏，我们也会永远内疚，后悔没有珍惜一份真挚的友情。。。

i think, maybe got a few person might able to feel how's my feel. i dropping my tears while i write this post. i never dropped my tears once, since my mother had passed away...

PC fair(sunday)

6/6/2010
Actually, i had go PC fair which held at Mid Valley at friday, 4th of June. I'm quite disappointed of attend the fair this time. Not as crowded as last year, and yet, i had get bad services at the fair, too.
Then why i still go at today, 6th of June? I am looking for spare phone, due to my old K770 had forced to trade in, as i notice problem had comes to phone. I head to Sony Ericsson kiosk, which under MPS Technology S/B, and the stock comes from Melaka, too. 1 of the staff, Jacqueline, is quite nice salesperson. Even she dunno who am i, yet, she really honest to tell me of Sony Ericsson W350i is an old stock and she gave me with cost price. (Of coz i know it was old stock la, it discontinued since January. Yet the Sony Ericsson W350i is really authorized original sets, not an AP sets. And i know the cost price which updated at January, too.) I really glad to know of got a such honest and fine salesperson still exist. Hopefully world will comes out more salesperson like her. At last, i had brought Sony Ericsson W350i.

27th - 28th May 2010

27th, thursday, 7am, i wake up early to take bus and travel to kl sentral. i have to take ktm from kl sentral to kampar, for seek of find my friend - chi wai, who study at utar @ kampar.
the journey start from 9am. i arrived kampar at 11.50am. quite a long time trip. chi wai tell me to take taxi and go to his house. i take a look around kampar - it a quiet place, air around kampar fresher than kl. when i arrived chi wai's house, her gf cooking for us.
(to be continued)

25th May 2010 星期二

今天中午，我去Leisure Mall。回到那儿，那些工作人员都前来问候我。他们大部分都是做早班的，而我最近都是晚上来，所以他们不知道我有来过那边。我去Maybank探望他们，顺便问候。还好，他们还认得我是以前做手机行业的职员。那时我看不到yan hui就问他们今天她有没有工作。说着，yan hui也回到她的座位。Yan hui也是刚工作不久，大约也有5个月了，身为同辈的，我也有鼓励她，祝她工作顺利。

24th May 2010 - 星期一

这个星期，是我的休息时期。坦白说，如果我知道计划会取消，我根本不会拿假。
今天早上，我和我的老友-chi wai，吃了早餐后，陪他一会儿，他就搭ktm前往kampar。唉。。。显。。。
过后的中午，我去mid valley找罗先生。他跟我说关于我要的蓝牙耳机MW600随时有货，问我几时要。我就要求了我要在星期六那天拿。我逗留了几乎两个小时，主要就是我的姐姐打算要换手机，所以我和他也谈了好一段时间，他叫我劝我姐千万不要在这时间买手机，过后我叫他别说出原因，让我猜出原因。我就说我收到消息关于有多款手机将会在下个月开始出售，这使到刚出售不久的一些手机跌价。他也说那些即将出售的手机的功能比之前的手机更卓越，如果不跌价，就更难卖。谈完了，我就在大约三点离开。
五点，我到了金河广场的greenbox。主要是我的朋友-嘉欣，她说五点在那儿见的。当我到那儿时，她问我会不会介意join她的朋友们。我没有介意。然后，我打电话给姐，“报告”今天的“谈判”。还没说完，嘉欣从greenbox出来了。老实说，我挺不好意思的，因为，我只是和她的朋友们打招呼，却没有好好介绍自己。嘉欣问我有关手机跌价的原因，我说通常新款的手机出售后，如果那手机的功能好过前一代的手机，那前一代的手机也会跌价。其实，我觉得她应该没有听到或不明白我说什么。过后，我竟然厚脸皮地拿麦克风，继而唱“爱不疚”。我觉得，我唱的优点过火吧？因为我很像连自己的感觉也泄出来了。大约六点，嘉欣向我提出出去吃拉面。
其中，我们聊了一些话题。她问我是不是很久没有和一大半朋友出来逛街之类。她不提，我也几乎忘记我也有差不多有一年没有和一大班朋友出来玩了。只是这几个月就有和一两个朋友看电影，仅此而已。。。然后，我想起了自从我去年生日后，辞掉手机销售的工作，就参与sony，继而过上全新的拼命生涯。很久没有尽情地聊天了，有点轻松的感觉。吃了拉面后，本来我想付完的，我万万没想到，她竟然说请我。虽然我很高兴，不过，我很想说下次请我也可以的，因为我有想过她自己本身的钱也不多。。。

很烦。。。

这几天，我的心很麻。不知道，是不是因为自己真的很不想孤单的关系，不断找人聊天。
我虽然决定要开始从小做起，打算做生意；但是，我目前严重缺少的就是钱。没有钱，我根本不能作出任何东西。本来我也有一线希望的，怎知道，我很信任的朋友，她告诉我不要抱太大期望-我已经知道，她未必能的了，有心无力吧？钱，往往都在控制我们。。。
刚才，我的心很累，由于我的计划被逼取消，我的一些朋友临时放飞机。。。唉，这个时候太难找到朋友喝茶聊天的。。。不懂会不会有这样的一天呢？我昨天探望一个朋友，她姓陈，至于我怎样认识她，也是从她买sony产品中认识的。她病得非常严重，而她家人却说，她的人生可能会如此短暂。过后，她就叫她家人们出去，只让我陪她聊天。她和我说些话，她说做好人必须有非常强的心灵，不然，就会像她那样，爱上一个不喜欢她的男生，甚至单思到重病。我不知道，我到底这样，会对大家公平吗？

bad luck comes and comes...

i feel i cant help any1, included myself...
recently, 1 of my friend, he have relationship with his gf for at least 5 years. according to story i heard, his gf request to plan for marriage but he keep delay and delay for 3 years, and recently his gf wanted to broke up with him and accepted of married to others. after tat, he completely changed. he no longer can focus to job, makes him no more income, and he kept makes himself drunk everyday. he felt despair and hopeless...
how bout myself? just still same, never changed myself. just, recently quite bz at weekend. well, i think, holiday trip maybe canceled, and i'll stay at home for get rest. chi wai might advanced back to kampar... dunno y, this year is most horrible planning...
last week, i have a bad live, my right leg had serious injured... i cant move freely about 5 days. everytime i try to walk without things support me, my right leg only gives pain. SHIT. i really cant believe i'll face it. even work, most colleague suprised when they look i walk with abnormal way. now, at least i can walk, but i cant run yet. swt... at 2nd night, i dream again. i heard her sound. at dream, she comes to my house and help me to change medicine which wrapped to my leg. i damn hope the dream will only continued and wont wake up.
got annoymous ask me few question, more question on relationship. she ask me if a girl had done serious matter which had damage her image, would i still accept her and love her? i gave answer, which i alo hope i can do it no matter wat serious things.
got christian friend kept invite me to join christian. he kept said of how good to be christian, an he said life might changed if join christian. i not really wanted to join. coz, i not really believed in god. i only believe in truth. if the person who dun have intention to change theirselves, they wont get success. moreover, i'm a stubborn guy, and once i decided, nobody can changed me, even my dear father and brothers.
i hope... things can be goes better...

很不开心。。。

“铭铭，快起身！快看你妈妈！”那时是五年多前的早上四点，我被我哥哥吵醒了，当我爸爸抱着我妈妈进车送去医院，我哥哥带我全家人坐他的车一同去医院。当我们在医院外面等消息时，年仅十岁的弟弟哭了，我的心也很痛。过后，医生也走出手术室，说了坏消息-我母亲被病魔夺走性命了。。。葬礼那天，当我孤独烧冥纸时，我哭了，我大哭一场。。。我尝试坚强，不要哭，但是，我做不到，因为，我亲爱的母亲永远离开了我。。。那个早上，校长，和一些老师们，也出席我母亲的葬礼。我想，他们也察觉到我的眼珠也红了。。。
母亲已经去世五年多了。。。我每一次听到母亲节时，我很心酸，因为我不能孝顺我的亲生母亲。。。有一些人知道，叫我看开点，不过，不懂是不是我很思念母亲的关系，我总觉得母亲还在我身边“看”着我。。。

昨天，我打电话给我的前女友。她说了些很不好听的话，但是有什么办法？我这次也不是很愿意找她，我只是想清完我和她之间的债。她欠我钱，我讨债是天经地义的。虽然这样是很无情，但是，她曾经也三番四次欺骗我，我和她复合后她却和背着我和其他男生谈恋爱，这样对得起我吗？这样也抵消了吧？昨天，她还和我说有关她交她的处女给她的现任男朋友，她的私人事关我的事吗？我这次本来是要讨回她之前说会还我之前帮她买speaker的钱，可是她却说她不要还。妈的，我很火滚。我就狠狠地骂她这样欠人家很爽吗？她的心会好过吗？她就说她会还我那speaker。
第二天，她工作，我只好向她妈妈拿speaker。讲真心话啦，我有不少speaker啦，这样做，我会不会太好人呢？算了，至少让大家不再拖欠对方就好了。

这就是我讨回来的bluetooth speaker，具有很强的bass

然后，我回到mid valley的sony centre。那儿的阿头，罗先生，以上宾的礼节欢迎我。他和我说他订不到我想订的W902原厂手机，因为它不会再出厂了。没关系啦，我老早也收到这个消息，知道他也尽力了。我和他说明了我对一个蓝牙耳机非常得有兴趣，只是不同零售商不同成本，就是特地卖原价RM299给我，罗先生知道，他给我看成本价钱，就是和我所预料的一样。他说他也会赚我，只是一点，当作是朋友价，我听到他说RM210时，我就很兴奋了，因为这几乎就等于成本价了吧！？他就开了一句玩笑，说可能会有女生买那耳机给我的。我听到，也突然没有心情了，因为以前有一个女性朋友，她临去国外念书时，曾经买了一个mini speaker给我作纪念品。我好想念她啊，不知她现在美国怎样呢？不过，如果真的有人买那么好的耳机给我就好了，因为那可是上等阶级的。。。

这就使我梦寐以求的蓝牙耳机^^还可以听radio呢！bass和立体环绕声也非常强！
chi wai也终于回来kl了。我终于不会再孤独，纵使是短暂的时间，我也很开心，他毕竟是我的好兄弟。他还说他尽量叫多点朋友一起庆祝我的生日。我也很高兴，虽然自己喜欢的女生很大可能没有陪我度过生日（因为她在努力和她喜欢的男生复合），那也是我很不开心，不过有什么办法？至少有好兄弟记得我的生日，我也欣慰了。。。

我不懂能不能坚强下去

今天，我像往常一样，打电话或信息她。可能是我喜欢她，所以差不多每天都会信息她吧？其实，我每天都很怕，很怕她会越来越讨厌我。虽然我有想过希望她会接受我，可是，我这段时间找她都是出自我的心以朋友来关心她的。其实我并没有抱大希望她会应邀我的生日outing，可是当我问她时，她却说她会在前一天，星期五，找她的男朋友。我很明白，一年多的感情总难分清的。虽然说是分手，可是她很爱她的男朋友，总想再复合，再想试试来证明。虽然，我也是过来人，曾经试过这样，但是，不懂是不是我喜欢她，我很痛心。我尝试面对这些话，虽然我没有流泪，可是，我觉得我的人崩溃了，完全没有精神了。。。我很想哭，可是，我哭不出，因为，我不能露出脆弱的我。我以前也经历过无数的悲事，好朋友的逝世，同事朋友的唾弃，背信弃义，我也经历过不少，我也没有沮丧，掉泪，我不能因为私人感情问题而倒下！

28/4/2010

I'll describe wat happened from monday, 28th april to today wednesday, 28th of april.
at monday, is really odd day for me. while i working, i do things in hasty speed, and i feel i'm fainted due of i used up all energy. but strange is, all ppl see is i am awake but weak. and i left office slowly. coz, all i rmb is, when i in concious, i'm with my brother. crazy part is, while i fainted, i saw some1 cry infront of me, even it was a "dream", but, it makes me uncomfortable. 1 of sad case is, 1 of my friend, amy, she'd become single dy... i dunno wat's wrong with her, but, i feel sympathy...
tuesday, i finally get my C901 dy. It had changed new mother board, and i finally able to browse internet even faster. haha. I really glad of my C901 become even better!
today, i get scolded by customer, i dunno y he so suddenly he angry and scold me, i patiently talk to him but he keep scolding, and scold my family. damn him, i didnt did anything wrong, but y he scold me? y scold me family summore? does he think old man have advantages to scold ppl? if he angry just bcoz of i tell him not to use phone at bank, i will tell him of if all ppl indicipline like him, every1 use phone at bank, if bank robbed, all of them will be suspected and forced to go police station.
i meet randy. he tell me of dun b hero, as chinese phrase "hero is always short life(ying hong hei dun)". he tell me, even he know of a lot of not original sets or recon sets had categorized as AP sets, but, who'll listen me? he remind me of i no need help ppl as i no longer work under sony. well, i didnt thought of i'm being behaved like a hero, i'm just trying to do things in right way.

I'm feel disappointed... i had apply holiday for have some enjoy with friends, yet, amy, raymond dun wan to join... only glad of chi wai will come back to kl after next week. i'm felt my spirit had weaken... cant sleep these few days...

Fatigue...

Just now, i work until 12am, i'm really tired at the moment, and yet, i walk back to home. i passed by somebody's house - Stephanie's house. I take a look over the door. I can't believe my eyes! I saw stephanie standing at the door and looking outside, and she notice me. I stand at her house's gate, and look we look each other around each other, without say anything, for about 5 minute. although is only 5 minute, but i feel time passed so long, it's because i hope i could heard her voice. At last, she only usebody language, which i weak in. I can't understand was she wanted to told me, other than "she can't sleep". After that, she tell me "Good night".
I never contact with her, since i resign as retail sales after my bday. I'm still rmb when bday, i met her while i walk alone at parkson. Actually, at tat moment, she scared to speak with boys, coz she faced a horrible incident. Yet, she had accompany with me for whole day of celebrate my bday. Quite weird, izit?
Wat incident she faced? At labour day, ryan brings her out to meet me.
to be continued...

Lazy....

It'd been a long time didnt open blog. i really busy of work recently. after this week, i might not free even weekend.
Time passed... today is 17th of april. almost reached official 20. today, i went to PC fair, mainly is invited by shirley of join their group for walk. then i move there at earlier morning and reached 11:37am. well, i really sensitive of lateness bcoz of her. i walk around alone. besides, i went there was actually for visit 1 of my dear sis, tracy. my feeling tell me of she might probably participate this fair. due of she bz(i think she have right of reject my invite for rest), and i quite miss her much, thus, i move there for visit her.
As result, i didnt see shirley, and she claimed of she came at earlier of morning, and she claims of she at hall5 and ready to leave. damn! i saw her at hall 3 and i instantly moved at hall 5 exit, and wait over there for over more than 1 hour, how come i never see them leave?
B4 this, i finally found tracy. she look's kinda pale(b4 she noticed me). i guess she had abandoned her health without her noticed. but i never tell her, as i saw she's smiling. i brought a speaker from her, too, as i heard of she mayb got commision when got sales on fair. i dun think it support her much, at least i hope it might strengthen her.

Back to old school

Today, i went back to school, i'd promise i'll visit them and watch their dance. I feel time passed really fast. When 1st time i meet them, it's 4 years ago, which they start secondary school life(form1). 4 years ahad been passed, they grown. especially Ivy, when i meet her, she look funny but cute; but now, she really smart, yet look beautiful. (Readers, pls dun have other thoughts, i just praise her only)
When i entered, i heard they told me of Rue Ning had become head prefect this year. I'd know it when she start probation of prefect. She quite brave, without fear of those "monkeys".
to be continued...

充满惊奇的一天 Suprising day

今天,我像往常一样,自己一个人去工作.由于今天马来人要拜神,所以我很早就吃了午餐(正确来说是早餐,我在四点时吃了夜宵)那些马来人出去吃饭,就是"打仗"的时间了-他们在星期五出去时间有两个小时.我当我像往常工作时,突然有那么亲切的声音唤我,我立刻朝那声音望着,我惊讶!万万没想到我会在工作时遇到她.不过我装作没有表情,怕她认为我在不爽地瞪她.过后的下午,经理说最近我很拼搏,不过,我并没有感觉,因为,我已经习惯做事不是缓慢,就是太快,快起来别人根本看不出我的步骤.
晚上,我忍不住,终于看了她的fb,她竟然写了我意想不到的话:
"今天竟然遇到他。。而且今天的他比那次和之前更好看，感觉也不一样。。他还是比较适合坐在office里工作。。。可能是那专心工作的样子。。哈哈，我还是比较喜欢看别人专心做工的样子"
Today, i walking alone to work as usual. Usually malay colleague will go to surau for praying at friday, thus i went out earlier for lunch(actually is breakfast, due to i having supper at 4am) When they for for lunch, means i'll even busy, as they takes 2 hour time to having lunch and pray. When i working, suddenly i can heard a sound. The soft voice calling me, and i look over the place where the voice comes, and i SHOCKED! I would never imagine of i'll meet her again while i working. But, i pretend no feeling and continue my work, and i scared of she thought that I stare on her more than looking her

生日变生忌

本来，今天有两个我认识的朋友的生日。可是，我很痛心，因为其中一个就是不久前身亡的闻名手机界的jacky voon。本来今天是他的生日，却在上个星期永远的离开这个世界了。。。啊头，虽然不能在世庆祝三十岁生日，但是，我依然祝你一路好走。啊头，安息吧。。。

安息吧...

昔日,一个青年,腰缠万贯,手持motorola V8黄金版,纵横手机界多达十年,只钟情于V8的他,凭他带领一班下属,兴旺motorola公司好一段时间.因为他的成绩,让一个女生也为他骄傲,也光荣成为了他的女朋友.他的大名是jacky voon,为action服务超过七年的老臣.我对他的印象普通,当我还在他的领导时,至少有他会大略说明做供期的条件,而我,也对他的故事也有点佩服.而今天,他已经永远的离开这个世界,与世长辞了...他的灵柜也运回砂劳越...当我知道这消息时,心有刺通之感...他的女朋友,也因为这件事,伤心不已...而大家-强,俊,kent,众兄弟感叹这位英雄的英年早逝...
我敬重的好汉,安息吧...

Sleepless...

It's about 3am. I couldn't sleep again...
I'd chat with limei, and she got complain to me of her bf doesn't believe her. I can feel the fear from her heart, and I only advice of not continue for it if her bf doesn't trust her.
I feel really hate human, y they dun wan to trust their friend or even their partner? And i'm not god, only a mecenary, y they complain to me? Even friend I trust also dun believe me. Even my eye can reveal the truth, pointless!
I called somebody(private), but the call seems converted to her bf. This feeling like last time a chat with pinky, really annoying of sometimes call converted to her bf and her bf sounds not friendly but fierce. Damn. Wat for?

no title...

recently really stress... my job is getting even harder... everyday like going to battle field to start war. cannot did a small mistake, as a small mistake may lost finances or pride.
i had contact with ivy, 1 of my junior. she told me of she facing a lot of trouble. she study even harder for spm tis year, and the standard had raised. A+ min mark is 90. wakao... is really hard for science student lo... she facing problem at relationship life, too. well, i can't cure her also as i can't cure myself. it makes me feel of i even hate humans. it recalled the "zodiac brave story". y? coz, got many ppl who know the story, they told me of my character is like delita. hmph... i not evil enough. i wish i could evil enough.
after conversation with her, some1 call me. she told me of they started to take action to me. although it show private number, but i guessed i recognized who was she. well, i hate such moron person, often create chaos while i still under chaos life. damn, i no intention to find ur gf, ok? she likes u!

无聊的事

今天中午，我去the store和以前的同事见面。当然，the store的老前辈和同事们还记得我，更想不到的是有人贺我在手机行业有一番成就。更没料到的是，有马来同事竟然把我的故事说给一个新同事，还把我介绍给她。坦白说，我不是很想咯，想起那天星期六的事，令我没有心情认识人。虽然我和那女生很陌生，不过，她问有关手机的事也非常多呢，几乎忘记她还在工作呢。中药部门的啊李和老林，也问我有什么手机好介绍。有些员工向我投诉店外的手机店不老实，专卖水机（翻新手机）。我老早就知道啦。所以，刚才我也扮作水鱼来问问外面的所有手机店的人，那些“老手”打算欺骗我，说Sony Ericsson K800,Nokia N70的AP手机还有货，一年保修。呸！翻新手机就翻新手机啦，说什么是旧货。呸！手机厂商老早对那两部手机在2007和2008停产啦！当我还要“放长线钓大鱼”时，那些“老手”的头目认得我，就叫他们别再介绍，他们就很像看到警察这样，不敢正视我，还不找顾客，就像往常的他们那样，打机，上网。他们根本不专业，别在手机行业发展啦！害死消费者！社会败类！这种人必遭天谴！







手机销售员买翻新手机的样图 - Sony Ericsson W200，已经停产的手机

Free day, learning day

Today is my 1st training of banking service. Majority is learn about history of bank, what service bank provide. I guess it's time i should purchase fix deposit for myself. At there, 1 of instructor ask few ppl's background. I'd chosen at that moment, as i came out, i heard somebody yell: "Was he a phone reseller who work at Leisure Mall?" I'm shocked of how come got ppl know me. Then the instructor ask me to intro my background. Well, i'd intro myself. (I'm lazy to list the content) At last, the instructor ask me whether I am single or engaged in relationship. I refused to answer. The instructor said i might having trouble on relationship matter. I refused to answer it, too.
The courses is finished. I still have a lot of time. I had take few photograph
Have a nice view








How do u feel? extraordinary beautiful view?

我会不会太过分了？

星期日的凌晨，三点半，我在外面散步的时候，没想到突然会下雨。这时的我，想起昨天晚上的事。
星期六下午，我参加Ampang的朋友举办的晚宴。他们请一些厨师准备一些自助餐。我穿得非常普通，就和我的朋友一起选一些小菜就找地方吃。其实，晚宴在五点开始，所以很多客人已经进来做客。我的朋友指着那群女生，说：“你看她们，她们很漂亮啊”我看他指的方向，觉得漂亮啊，不过为什么他突然这么说呢？他说：“我可以介绍给你的”我拒绝，说：“谢谢你的好意，不过我不接受”他就冷笑“讽刺”说：“你几时那么无情哦？”
这时，有一个男子向我打招呼。他穿西装，人也英俊潇洒。他向我说谢谢。我傻了，为什么那么突然向我道谢呢？他说，以前他向我买HTC DIAMOND II，我教他设置email，上网，等等用途，一教就教了大约两个月。他还说我工作很专业，不像外面一般的手机销售员。我认得他了，他是刘先生，以前我从事手机行业时，他曾经帮我买过HTC DIAMOND II。当时他说他是做生意，需要智慧型手机。过后的十月，他在我辞职那天他帮我买Satio的男子。那天他来Mid Valley时穿得很普通，所以一时间我认不出他。过后，刘先生叫一个女生向我打招呼。
那女生没有化妆，直挺挺的长发（我不会形容），可爱的脸蛋，精灵的小眼睛（我不会说阿），还有樱桃般的小嘴。对我而言，她算是容貌好看的女生，加上她身材苗条，穿上礼服更显得她看起来漂亮。哈哈，为什么我突然会批评人呢？奇怪。说归说，我注意到大部分的男性都把眼光注意在那女生。更没想到的是，那女生竟然很热情地向我请安。这使我受宠若惊呢。刘先生介绍那女生是她的妹妹，以前就听过我的名字，也一直有倾慕之意。我听了，心突然有点寒。
大约九点晚上，她自动来找我。当时，有一些男生的眼光对着她。我们找了位子，她说她想知道有关我的背景。我介绍我自己后，她问我：“为什么我不再从事手机销售？”我心痛的回答：“因为现在的人民贫穷，为了省钱，宁愿买AP也不买原装手机。他们根本不会了解，现在大部分的翻新手机已经融入在AP手机，而大部分顾客为了省钱反而不小心买到翻新手机。翻新手机已经是用过的二手机，而消费者用‘新机价’卖‘二手机’，我根本不能当作没回事，就告诫朋友，可是他们不肯听，就说什么AP和原装没有什么分别，只是保修方面。我的告诫也没有听进去，我也没有心再从事下去了。有一次有一个朋友没听我的劝解，不小心买到翻新手机，当他知道是翻新手机时，已经好几个月了，他要拿去保修时，一个说那是中过水的手机，不能保修，另一个说它的内部太旧，没有能力修好。我知道时，也只说不听老人言，吃亏在眼前”然后，她拿手机看e mail，过后我才知道，原来刘先生买Satio给她。
我就问她能不能介绍她自己。她说她去年中学毕业，现在作会计。我听到，我更怕，因为这样证明她的智慧是非凡的高。可是，她的回答比一般的女生更亲切。我问她她的恋情进展如何，她却说她一直以来都是单身，没有心仪的男生，就只有我。糟糕了。。。有人暗恋我？可能又有人因此受伤了。。。她问我：“我能不能成为你的女朋友”这一句，偏偏在这时说出来了。我只能硬着头皮回答：“我感谢你对我这个普通的男子有倾慕之意，可是很对不起，我不会答应你”她立刻问为什么我拒绝，我说我已经有心上人。当我还要说话时，她的眼泪开始出来了。我只能安慰她，说她以后能找到比我更好的男生的。她却直摇头。哎。。。
晚宴结束，刘先生找我。他问我是不是还放不下那女生。我说是，他就说看来之前我为了一个女生而订手机是事实，而不是传闻。我虽然好奇为什么他会知道，但是我没有问。刘先生说：“她从小到现在很孤单的，别看她样子好看，有很多男生暗恋她，其实她没有喜欢过其他男生，没有爱人，加上她的人不算坚强，所以她才那么容易哭”他说他了解爱情不能强求，所以他不会怪我。然后，他载我回Steven Corner
在当晚十二点，我在沉思。我知道我根本不能避免伤害人家。因为，我对刘小姐没有感情，我还喜欢那个女生；如果我违背良心说我愿意，她知道我心还很喜欢某女生时，她也会很伤心。如果你们男生遇到这情况，你会怎样选择呢？我的心很烦，便在外面游荡。当时是三点了。当我在外面游荡时，突然下雨，可是从来不喜欢淋雨的我，竟然让雨淋下去。这样是不可能净化自己的罪过，而我傻傻地呆着。我的眼睛告诉我，刘小姐还在哭着吧？我当然知道，我的人不是没有感情的。。。

讨厌真理

今天下午,我遇到ACTION公司的经理-JayTan.经过叙旧,他问我现在从事什么行业.我说,他做什么就是我做什么.他就说了,"Vincent,虽然我们都退出ACTION,不过他们总算对你有恩,你知不知道你还欠他们......"我立刻升起的臭骂他,"欠什么欠?我和他们已经恩断义绝!不体恤下属已经是无情,欺骗下属更是无义.我永远不会和无情无义的公司为伍!就算没有就业,我死也不吃这种回头草."这一句后立刻不辞而退.
我的眼睛,告诉我一些事.有时候,有些我信任的人是最危险的人.我比任何人更能深了解那个意义,可是我往往都会向他们坦白.所以,如果我真的如JayTan所说过的那样,我也不会怨谁...

我放弃目的,放弃自尊...

今天凌晨,我睡不着.我虽然有点累,可是火热的眼睛,不断在上害我...
我在上网查有关新款的蓝牙时,有人呼唤我出来,是德义.他说有紧急是要和我商量.大约两点,我和他就在老地方相聚.他给我看一封信,据说是在他家的信箱搜出来的.我看到那封信,我立刻撕掉它.接着,他说原本他打算遵从这封信去揍我,但是他觉得我是大义之人,所以他打算帮我,直到他了解整件事的源头再打算.
说着,由于太黑,我和他根本没发现到身后有人.还好之前我和他"互相残杀",能避到偷袭.我们留意到,在后面有一个人,由于太暗,不可能清楚看到他的样子.很久没有遇到恐怖的打杀了,我一时因为心慈不敢打架,他又握着什么东西.他声称要为他的朋友教训我,说是对我随便查授予他朋友恋情所作出的惩罚.他朝我的方向攻击我时,我进入"奇怪"的状态,进行反击.当我还有点清醒地感觉时,对方背后向我,我的双手拉着对方的双手,脚踢着他的背后.德义劝我别赶尽杀绝,可是向来有恩报恩,有仇报仇的我,看到他不告诉我真相,我再猛烈折磨对方.对方的骨折声,对方也痛了,而我也随着他的痛鸣声笑起来.德义高喊了,
"Vincent,别再这么残忍啊!虽然他们可恶,但是你也不用那么冷酷无情.如果你伤害了人,他们有权告你伤害别人,或他们找人来犯你.如果你有什么坏事发生,你的朋友会高兴吗?你的"妹妹"不会担心吗?你的"妹妹"的表姐是喜欢你的.如果你有事,他不会伤心吗?就算你对她没有好感,你也不要作出伤害她的事啊."
我听了他的话后,我也心软了,放开他,把他放在以前我每天去的公园.我稍微看到他的样子,只能认得他的狼狈样,没剃好胡须的模样.他只说是谁指使他们,而我听了,也没有理会.我跟他说,叫他的主人或朋友别再烦我了,我不想再理他人的事.
我注意到德义的脸上有血迹,而我的左肩也有点肿,应该是个到某些利物吧?
以前,我非常想知道事情的真相;相反,现在的我,已经放弃了这个想法...可能是amy不相信我的关系吧?对我来说,她不相信我的事,已经伤到我的自尊,我就算知道无论谁是主脑,她不会再相信我的一句一言...

我到底脑里想些什么？

昨天星期五,我在shah alam顾客的家,欣赏宴会里的食物,观赏烟花.由于下大雨,他们延迟到9点才放烟花.我早料到会下大雨,所以我没有带C901,反而带久违的K810,就这样,我没有录好.宴会结束,11点,我看手机,原来,是君妹的信息...
小君,哥很想你呢...我们已经很久没有联络了.你是我所认识的人当中少数信任的,也是我所疼的乾妹.你也知道,我非常不相信人,所以,我通常都很冷漠,只对部分的你们坦白...
回想中一时,我时常在学校只是非常冷漠,纵使盈盈在我班,我依然也是冷漠的脸色.当时的你就读在我的隔壁班.只有你,能够把冷漠的我,变成自然的自己面对信任的人前.只有你,在当我非常愤怒时,你能够把我变回冷静.人们都认为,我什么都不怕.在学校,我抱打不平,得罪古惑学生.只有你留意,我有害怕的时候;所以,每逢我有为同学朋友吵架,打架后,你都有安慰我,鼓励我.虽然,你的人不算聪明,但是,你的心非常好.我在发呆时,你偶尔会在我面前开玩笑,大部分人的玩笑对我没有作用,就是你能够,纵使我只尝试忍笑,就是败在你的笑话下.有时候,你知道我想什么,你就对症下药.你还说过,你擅长读心术,就是我这种冷漠的人很容易读出.你虽然没说出,我知道,有时候你也会觉得烦,可是你当我是你的哥哥,所以你并没有说出怨言,哥了解,所以我不会随便烦你.
最近,我喜欢的某个女生,我已经够坦白了,可是,她却不相信我.我所说的是实话,但是,她的心里是觉得,我是个乱来的人.我应该怎么做呢?

dunno is good or no la...

I finally able to sleep, at tat day... although is bout 3-4 hours, but, quite enough for me.
although i really hate kar wai, he dare to cheat his schoolmate for earn more money, summore is recon sets! tat's y outside nobody likes him (i can't said i'm good la, coz last time i had interfere their business for seeks of truth, till AP reseller dun likes me). well, since rhu yan ahd brought it and he not regret even he know the truth, nvm...

Head even pain...

Damn it... I still headache, even worst!
Yesterday I find Rhu Yan, he had changed phone, exactly is C901. He said of he brought from Kar Wai with RM700. When I heard it, I'd know Kar Wai cheat him ady. He request me to verify whether his C901 is new or recon. When he hand it to me, damn! Too light compare with usual C901. I check housing had opened b4, and the back of housing (battery part) have strong chemical smell, even my nose stuck also can smell clear. It definitely recon sets! Kar Wai, how dare u cheating again! Then, I go visit doctor, due of chemical smell had affect my head

No more contribute for telecommunication!

Today, is my last day to having seminar of sales for handphone to all juniors. Place at mid valley. I still forgot few ppl's name. They ask the reason of I decided not to follow up or research for phone. I never answer them... After finish the discussion, I saw Mr. Yew. He laughing of I pay such a big amount for order phone. He ask me reason of order phone and reason of cancel the order. I dun wan to mention it, as the deposit had paid, I can't get back if break promise... W595... Sigh... Well, the lost of tat deposit gave me challenges. I had lost job... Tat's makes me feel scared... Actually i'd made full payment, but I only said i'd paid 2/5. I dun wan let her know of I'm in trouble, I dun really needed her money, even how danger or how bad situation, I dun wan get even 1 cent from her. I bet she won't read my blog. Hope she'll even cheer...
I'm still tired... Who can cure my heart?

Meaningless stuffs

Finally 3am... 21st february 2010
I'm walk alone outside, with my weak body, at yesterday 2pm. I dun have idea. I'd face 2 problem currently...
1st, I dun like any1 not believe me, or lying to me. If they not asking, of coz I won't said anything related to the topic
2nd, I needed to find new job. Few of my friend had said of amy makes me lost job. Well, it isn't her fault. Coz, I guess she forgotten of I still under medical treatment. Is my fault as I won't face management staff if I decide not to meet her. I think she won't believe me ady, if she believe me, and she know i'm still sick, she may at least msg me via sms or facebook for regards.
I know of I should rest, as my health haven't goes better. Yet, I dun have mood to rest. Then, 1 of my buddy, who work same line with me last time, call me for job offer. I face with manager. She feel i'm cold untill shaking my body, then she order them to close air cond, and she brought coffee to me. I'd long time never treat with vip style. We sat at table, she show's appointment letter to me, with written my name. She told me of company might offer with rm1500 of basics, with office hour, and additional commission. Sounds cool, is it? But, my heart is pain... 1 of my friend rather choose AP than choose original sets, I never let AP dealer earn even I serve my friend with my loyalty. Not because i wan earn my friend's money, because i dun wan they have a chances to brought Recon Sets. Nowdays a lot of AP dealers prefer recon those 2nd hand handphones, change parts or only housing, and sell as new SP Sets. Those Reson Sets might brings more profits compare with sell as 2nd hand handphones. The main point is, I dun recommend my friends buy AP Sets, because they might have a chances to brought "2nd hand handphone" with HIGHER PRICE! It not only mean of insulting me, it also hurts me. Then, I straight away reject the manager. She said she also sympathy of my matter. She said she will wish me all the best and hope will meet someday. I really appreciate of she speak politely.
Well, I dun wan to repeat. She might won't believe me at all, I won't care whether she will read my blog or no. I won't give any explain to her of reason I left early or reason of lost job.
My eyes still open, with even hot. Cannot sleep, even with extremely tired

头疼啦...

昨天到今天凌晨,很多人一旦知道我的坏消息,不断联络我,问候我.当中,有好意,也有恶意.有人说,是那女生害我失去工作,有些人说,不应该相信她.我觉得,是自己顽固,不听妹妹的话,随便出门.我应该听妹妹的话,留在家里休养,明知身体那么差而偏偏勉强自己,装作若无其事找人.如果不找她,我也不必中抓.
凌晨,我和Est妹聊天,她说别想太多,休息为上.我和她聊到大约四点.自己再出门,我不是生气她怀疑我,我只是想知道那个主脑是谁.大约六点多,我看到我的朋友和他的女朋友.他招手叫我搭桌.他声称他吃饱了,请我吃饭.当我的手抖被他看到,他就叫他女朋友喂我吃饭.paiseh...我只好立刻叫包填肚.他只劝我,别找我口提过的那个女生,说我可能会遭殃.我说过我不会再找她了,因为朋友之间是要有"信",既然她不相信我,那我还要找她干嘛?不怕她将来会骗我吗?
那个混蛋,还假扮录影我手抖吃包的样子...我也懒得理了...

暂时要忍耐

哎...谁可以介绍更好的工作给我?我失业了...我辜负我的恩师,萧欣怡对我的栽培.我实在是无地自容...我没有面目见你了...我今天病了,我拿病假,准备休息后找雪莹妹聊.我去看医生回家,看见amy写的信息,叫我出来.我出门到餐厅后,看到经理!糟糕了...
我找雪莹后的晚上,经理"请"我出来,审问后,我也被宣布我失业了...
谁叫我那么逞强.病了还随便找人...Vincent Lee,抵死!

having a great day with my sister n my senior

Today, i had meet my instructor, who teach me martial arts. he appear so sudden and test my alertness. but, i'm failed to block it. he tell me of he know wat happened to me recently. he said of he might go back to china. he tell me of always be alert of every1 including close friend.
at noon, while i having some works, amy contact me to go steven corner & show the letter, i'm back to home and search but couldn't found it. well, i really bz as i'd promise my younger sis, shirley, to meet at 2:30pm. y i so concern of her? coz i treat her as my younger sister. while i meet amy, almost 2pm lo. i have a drink then leave steven corner. mayb they feel of i not respecting them, but, i really in emergency. my sis dun like lateness. last year i'd late twice, and, i wont break promises between "sisters" and i.
i'd reached SP at 2:25pm. tat's was close. she also suprised of i reach earlier than time appointed. seems, my image is polluted in her mind. haha. we go to sushi king for meal. we'd chat a lot. seems better than last year. these few photo taken there

Shirley & I


i guess, too yellowish... light too focus on yellow...


She is daydreaming


my funny face XD

we having meal until 4:30pm. we decided to walk around till 5pm. we not chat much at tat period. she adviced take rest, as she saw my hand is shaky. she also complain of my shaky hand can't take better photograph. i know she is helping me, as she care me like caring her bro. anyway, thx

i had back to steven corner again, as i'd promises Alice, my friend who study TMN Yarl b4. i'd told her wat's happened to me recently. she had made a lot of possibly. she told me of not believing even close friend, as they might be enemy, too. sounds like i'll having trouble soon

Doom date

Today quite silly. I wouldn't know, they really 'smart'. I'd make myself to move everywhere without my intention.
Today, I go to mid valley for get screen protector as my best buddy cw didn't get it while he brought Sony Ericsson Satio. Actually I saw a lot ppl I know at there, too. Xiao Yi, Simon, Amy, and more. But, I didn't say anything to them, as I have things to settle. As I get screen protector, 1 of my friend ask me to accompany him to buy something.
While I 'enjoy' of walking around, got a guy passed by me. I search my pocket as I usually really alert of pickpockets. I saw letter. Then, I go caught tat guy instantly and keep ask him with anger. Those ppl watching me, and I ignore them, as some of those workers know i'm fierce. The fellow tell me is kah yan. Ma de! Actually I not believe this la. Coz I know her attitute, she won't do such things, she is good girl. I really wanted to hit him tat time, but, he escaped. My friend suprised of my fierce look.
Time passed to 5pm. I go to my buddy, cw house for stick screen protector for his lovely Satio. But, I stick with a smallllll bubble. He not care of it. And he ask me of how was situation between amy and me. I tell him everything happened recently. He guess of my matter makes my concentration lost and results of failure of perfect attach screen protector. Well, I dun wan mention
For me. I only hope... Everything settled. The voice which awaken me... Who r u? Can help me?

sharp needle...

I feel i really headache. although yesterday i finally i can have a nap, even is just 3-4hour, i feel really comfortable. suddenly... i heard a voice... sounds like some1 i know, yet, no idea... her sound really soft, brings blessing. i'm feel i'm not dreaming. the soft voice tell me... pls vincent, nvr gives up. ur spirit getting weak. be strong.
i'd woke up, then, i have short chat with amy... darn... she seems not believe me. wat everytime boy said last, after last then not end it... not only boy la, girl also wat...... i dun wan argue with her. coz, i really dun wan to hurt friends. actually i just hope she give me chance to let me intro those function of yari... and also, i promised myself not often to find her... but, she even didnt reply. sounds hurts... i dunno... i feel tired again...

Yesterday i had accept a simple interview. My performance not really good, coz i have long time didn't accept interview or public speaking
i'm really happy of having an interview from Sony Ericsson user, though


this is the video.

Red eyeball... Had hidden with unpleasant feeling

I can't sleep again... It's been 1 week... My eyes really tired... Really tired... Do u guys can imagine or experiences how's feel of effect of continuously didn't sleep? I'm faced... It's not ordinary ppl can handle it. Eyes really hot, when try to close my eyes and sleep, my eyes become hot, burning. Body tired but can't rest... I had to take mc again and again... Y? Y I can't live like normal human?
15, I noticed some1 follow me and trying to harm me, luckily i'd avoid such attack and defeated the guy...
Just now, i'm really hoping to get a nice rest, for thanks my best buddy. Yet, amy had msg me. I had feel something odd. Their relationship is actually got prob b4 I msg her at december ago. Y she blame me like tat? Because of I like her?
I'm really headache... Even hard to breath... Doctor had warn me not to be even slight emotional, as my blood pressure is gain drastically from december untill up today... I'm feel hopeless...

Satio Era

Today, 16th of Feb, is special day for my best friend, CW. he get Sony Ericsson Satio! Congratulations! All the best to u & Good Luck!
b4 we brought phone, we play Naruto Ultimate Ninja 5. sound kiddy right? i never play any games for more than 2 years! Never relax like that, although lost a lot of times, yet, i'm happy of joy. we move to MV at 4pm. Guess wat i wan to do? i juz help cw get Satio with better price, where Original Set price which even cheaper than DISCOUNTED AP Sets! i guess whoever read my blog wouldn't believe, izit? was it impossible?? NO! i can get it! And i know, consumer might get Stereo Speaker if they brought black colour set. Let see the speaker

My personal opinion, the speaker bass is really strong! yet, quality consider normal.

After he brought Satio, we back to his house and keep doing research related to Satio. Even though i'm know function well, i still wanted to know how good was it. the Video recording is good, clear and smooth. although it record under 3GP format. Photograph is consider good, too

(this photo taken by my C901. see how happy he is)

Let's having view of photo taken by Satio:

Twilight Mode. Consider bright la.


I like it^^ promoting C901 & show how nice photo taken by Satio!


XD


MS410, Speaker free comes along with Sony Ericsson Satio(black). Strong bass!


Satio Packages : MH300(handsfree), USB cable, Stylus, 8GB memory card, MS410(Speaker)
p/s: speaker is only limited period. if interested, go buy satio black colour faster!

Sound quality consider ok compare with previous music phone, too bad it dun have clear audio technology, it actually consider under hybrid of Business Cybershot phone. Anyway, all the best!

in the earlier morning...

15th of febuary, 2am.
i couldn't sleep... i'm really tired. i keep awake for few days. eyes feels like burning.
while i went out from my home, my sweat keep comes out, coz outside really hot although at nighttime. i wear with sports custome like usual. i walk around and around. i passed by yong ting's home, i keep look there, and playground which opposite her home. the playground had renovated... yet, i can see, the past... how enjoy when i play, study together with yong ting. but, it had been passed for really long time, although memories still exist to my mind, not clear enough, but, i feel really sad. time past really fast, a lot of memories between she and i had been vanished. i wonder how was she? i really dun have any idea. i passed by carrefour after leave happy garden. i rmb, i meet with my sister, tracy. she's really funny. i dunno how to describe how funny she was. she's really cute, and really nice.
i back to OUG, i feel my back really wet... I noticed of i'd been followed by some1 for long time, since last month. today, i feel it again. i purposely walk round and round from 26th road to 28 road. finally i go to garden. i stopped, stand still and do nothing. i can hear, he silently move forward. i turned my body and i saw a guy, i ask him y he follow me tat far. he wave his fist and attack me, and hit my left hand. i had fall down, and for seek of protect my phone, i urposely use my left hand closer to floor. sound silly, right? gosh... my left hand really pain, not only feel pain, my arm had slightly scratched... then i hit his face with right hand, and kick his stomach. he was stunned.
while i ask him the reason he followed me, he said a lot of crapping stories... he tell me "y i still annoying with a guy's gf? didn't read the letter and msg he gave me?" well, i dunno who was the guy, then i ask him was he the person who keep annoying me. he denied and he said he had ordered by a guy named Tay. who Tay oh? i only know a person with surname Tay, Boon Huang, but, i'm sure of he won't do such things, as we lost contact for more than 2 years. who Tay? i really dun have idea. he continued his sentence of he sometimes appear around happy garden, and he ordered few person spying me for more then 1 month ago. i wondering, who the heck? i ask him who the fellow. he laughing and said i really dunno him or pretend dunno him, he study at KDU. WTH, i dun have any idea, i know nobody study at KDU. and he ask me of i got received the msg which warning me of not going to chat with his gf by use his gf number. i ignore his question and trempled his stomach and leave garden instantly.
i guess, i got idea of who was the guy already...

the continue story of yesterday, which happened to my junior...

As i know amy had brought Yari, i felt something odd. How come of Yari doesn't give 1GB!? Then, I investigate, i know those AP reseller cheated her. Mostly they purposely give wrong phone, coz Yari cant ATTACH M2 memory card! It only uses MicroSD. Then, i called her, she said she might call me later. Then, while i still doing my powerpoint for Sony Ericsson Speakers Profile to PowerPoint file for presentation, she sms me of view her blog, then i know something wrong. At last, as i predict, she get cheated... I feel of i full of sins... Y i dun try to accept her call? y i noticed it so late? Yari not EXPENSIVE TILL RM899! I can get it far far lower than it for AP! Added summore money from RM850 to RM899???? Wat kind of service they provide????????

Really hard to help ppl...

I'm really stupid. I'd scolded by Mr. Jack, the AP dealer. Wat he scold is not I break promise, but I help ppl. He's 1 of my friend since primary school, so he never said anything or complain of break promise. I'm only can do is, pay of break promise upon ordering handsets. He still ask me of job offer, yet, i'm no longer wanted to go for telecommunication job, no matter how he praise me, or he praise with history, glory, truth. I'm really tired of working, and i'm really tired of face ppl. Y ppl dun listen advice? Y they not wait for moment of time?
When I heard of Yari, I really wanted to faint. It's completely a failure on entertainment. When the time I work together under sony, I really mad of can't sell the yari, no sets sold among order 10 sets. Camera sucks, sounds system below average, slow operating speed compare with other sony ericsson phone. And price not friendly, even... When I heard of she brought by rm850, I really headache... I can get even cheaper for original sets, if AP, far more more cheaper! Dai Lou Jack, y u so kind to give me the excel form info? I'm really hate those reseller, staff, never thought of citizen's income and expenses, and kept earn too much from them. Son of the bastard! I WANT TO KILL U ALL! BITCH! I beh tahan ady... I yelled... Y I promise ppl?
I'm really headache... Can't breath well... Likely nearly fainted...

No title...

I didn't know, Amy know my blogsite all the time, and she may know wat i did. I really embarassing... I guess i really dunno how to face with her already...

The past...

I had long time never so relax... Yesterday is my rest day, yet, i can't sleep at early morning. All of sudden, I rmb 1 of my friend, Shirley. Actually i got contact her last few week. I can sense of she feel worried or frustrated. Wat a mysterious feeling, then, i call her. Well, i had called her bout 3 times at tat day. I dunno wat's her feeling la. At around midnight, i ask her few things i wanted to ask long time ago. She answered honestly. Since she answer it, i guess the case is completely settled.
I still rmb, after my bday, i reli no mood to work... Then i resign instantly. Mayb they dunno wat's i thought. I think, even Keong wouldn't know. Anyway, TQ Shirley, u had help me released from "jail". U had gained my courages to leave "Action", and changed my life after that. My life is gone slightly better.

my content changed by forced...

I just refresh my C901's software. I not really fit it. Facebook comment time is not accurate. Moreover, Accuracy of facebook update no improvement. Only operating speed is slightly faster only. Sigh...
Recently i really feel tired... I never knew of i can't stand of damages...

dreaming impossible...

yesterday night, i had dream something really FAKE!
is something far different from real life. in dream, i am being too sincere and tell everything wat i feeling or wat i wan to say. and, i dream of i have girlfriend. and on 1 day, i brought C901 pink for tat girl! WALAO!!!!!!! tat time, i try to tell myself plz wake up, i really dun have such mood to dream lke tat! zzz...
sigh... i really no mood, especially i dun wan to face with next sunday...

rain...

01/02/2010 8:00pm
heavy rain comes so sudden... was shinny & tracy feel cold right now? i know them well, really worried of them. take care ya. how bout esther, brandon & all my friend right now? juz wish them take care, too...

time passed really fast... now feb dy... i really sad, get older, closer with sadness...
tat's 5th night i lost sleepiness. i really gone crazy of it! i really suffer and yet i cant tell any1. coz, i duwan a lot ppl know wat i thinking... if many ppl know, i'll get lot's of trouble.
last month is actually my most challanging month. every of my friend wish me to try my best to do watever thing related to my job & also knowledges of telecommunication & imaging skills for camera. yet, i'm quite sry to every1 who wish me, concern me, i had disappointed all of u. i'm know work and education is far more than relationship, yet how come i so foolish? i'm cant focus to my work since last 3 weeks, i had did a lots of mistake, evryday did at least 2 mistakes. officer is suspecting me... while i training, i can't absorb new knowledge, and when having discussion with fellow friends and who work under telecommunication, i cant give them detail with better way. well, i had rest for more than 1 week ady, yet, i still cant concentrate! i really feel despair of my job, coz, lost contration which create mistakes will affect my percentage of probability for comfirmation. once not comfirm, i had to find other job. i not dislike my job, but, y i soooooooooooooo MORON? my foolishness had affect me...
well, last month a lot of sad case happened... my primary schoolmate serious injured, my friend lost in mystery, etc... i can't stand of damage ady.
in the morning, i having breakfast alone, again. and i feel hurt... my sad memory keeps coming while i saw a mother feeding sons and daughthers. if my mother still alives, mayb my younger brother still study form4 now, i had start my college life propably. who knows?
while i at sungei wang, i wait for my mei, esther. actually i know she might late as she sleep quite late ytd night. i won't blame her, and i hope she won't felt sorry of lateness. she comes at 12:30 noon. i'm really appreciate her of allow me to join with her. thx esther. since we graduated, we'd long time didn't meet each other. simon is far taller than me lor... makes me feel like wan dig a hole for hide myself XP we having food at sungei wang food court. i really suprise of my appetite had recover and finally can enjoy lunch. haha
2:00pm:
after having lunch, we walk around sungei wang for search something we wanted. i try some new clothes, yet, most of clothes is not wat i wan. mayb i like uncle style gua. i heard esther said of simon wanted to buy a bag. as a result, we didn't buy anything and we go to times square and survey. at there, we just keep walking, and searching, and wait for simon's friend at MCD around 3:30pm. while simon waiting for his friend, i having conversation with esther. (i'm have no intention to give contents of conversation between she and i, here) then, she reached around 4pm, and we have "tea time" at doughnuts & coffee. well, i feel a bit weird. coz esther and simon keep talking each other and abandoned his friend. after finish "tea time", she left us, and we continue hang out. eheh. finally simon brought a bag he likes, buti didn't brought any. zzz... we had left time square around 5pm, and i went back to my home alone, while they go for meet their family.

Esther, i didn't feel bored at all. although we didn't chat much today, i'm know of we're try our best to find topic for chit chat. thx of allowed me to join all of u. i'm appreciate of it.

at night, i had chat with somebody. actually i not really know much the person. he ask me of y i dun look for others, or try chase "kai mui". i dun have any comment of y i dun look for others, but, i dun chase "kai mui"! once i treat her like younger sister, forever i like her with brother love. y i like tat girl? i really no idea... if u got like some1 with a few reason, i guess it means u not really like he/she, sure must be got something hidden. i only know, my heart tell me of i had like junior.
sigh... I'd received a bad news... about my job, my performance is far below average and i'm in critical...

岂有此理!

31/01/2010
刚才(12am-6am),也是睡不着...我到处游荡,有朋友打电话给我,结果我就在她家一直聊天.嗯...其实,我跟她是从从事电话销售行业后认识的,严格来说,她是我的顾客吧?她有向我的公司(ACTION)买三款(SE K810,SE C902,SE C905),都是我招待她的.她是富翁的女儿,年纪竟然和我同年.这使我感到自卑.哈哈...我带了我刚买的MPS-100拿给她见识.她说那个喇叭的音质比以往我所用的两个喇叭(即MPS-30和MPS-70)更好.她问我价钱,我只说,那个喇叭是要预订的,必须去MV或Sony Erisson中心订购.那晚,我就和她在客厅用那喇叭听音乐.那个喇叭简直赞啊!
但是...早上我去我的小学同学的家,意外的知道一件不幸的事-他在前两天被一群流氓殴打,身体还挨了多刀.我进了他的房间,看见他的伤势严重,他的身体很明显有肿胀,我看到也心痛.就算他和我并非深交,我也不想原谅这些恶霸的所做所为!他说,那班人是想向我示威,首先伤害我所认识的人,还声明如果我不遵从信中的要求,他们不保证不会伤害人命!天啊...那班人真过分,无法无天!我看了从那班人交给他那封信.我的眼睛原本很热,现在更火上加油!什么如果不满意,就在KDU解决!我立刻撕到那张纸,离开他的家.
回家时,大约十二点了.到底是谁？KDU的人?我根本没有认识任何读KDU的人...

Finally brand NEW Sony Ericsson MPS-100 is MINE!!!

It's been a while time, finally, Sony Centre had inform me of the Rare & Great Sony Ericsson MPS-100 had order stock and i can get it. I wait for it for a while time, as i had charmed of it's great stereo sound and powerful bass! I had test it and i really satisfied!

我不知道该如何...

唉...最近,我没有食欲.我只顾着帮我的学妹找兼职.最近,我睡不着,再加上没有食欲,身体已经越来越差.刚才,我又睡不着.刚才心夜也说我的眼睛太多血丝,很恐怖!这就是证据...


我非常清楚问题所在,然而,我克服不到我的问题.对不起,我已经在尽力不想你了,可是我做不到...

I know i'm so silly and moron... 我知道我很无稽...

Recently, i'm doing something really out of my mind. Guess what happened? I never sacrificed my rest time without eat lunch for help someone, and help for a while time. Although recently I really waste money yet can't finish meal due of lost appetite, but, these 2 day, I didn't eat lunch at all, yet I keep call, walk in branch and outlet for vacancies enquiry for my friend. Although about 77% is no vacancies, yet, I still keep call and search. I had check phone usage, these 2 day had spend about rm31, and call/walk in inquiries total about 47 branches or outlets. It was roughly calculated amount. I never call friend or family for chat, or customer for phone problem solution, till that amount b4. I haven't add taxi fees yet. Just now got officer suspects me of I disloyal, well, I really lazy to give explain. My friend saw me at ixsun, and he ask me why I help her that much even she had reject me last time, and doesn't treat me well for strengthen friendship, until I spend this spend that for brings nothing to me. I didn't answer him, and let him keep bla bla. I not really of got any deeds, only hope I can help her well. I'm willing of help her, without any pay. I'm really tired of find gf, really tired, yet brings less sleep time without cure fatigue... I'm dun wan admit i'm hurt! I dun wan let her know wat i'm feel and dun let her I had do things insane till pay deposits for brought things for her. I dun wan let her know, is hope she live happy, although I not happy of cant 'charm' her heart, I cant break ppl happiness...
I'm really tired... When is my peaceful day?
Just now my friend, anthony, inform me of 'stock' is ready for me within few days. Well, I really no mood to face anyone...

我很疲累...

我很想长眠...我能清楚感受到,我的集中力可以说是低于零...我的脑只是想着某某事,我连三餐都没有食欲...我很想睡觉，但是我睡不着...一月就快过完了...我觉得很累...我很怕...虽说我习惯孤独的生活,其实我也很怕孤独,总希望有人陪伴我...哪管是谁,朋友也好,就算男生或是女生,我只想要有真诚的朋友,真挚的爱情,我不想大家之间互相欺骗...

该是替她高兴呢?还是什么呢?天晓得,,,

唉...我的心很乱...
她和她的前男友复合了.
本来身为她的朋友,学长,我应该替她高兴;但是,我的心却很酸...

Skills

Blogger got error recently... Time also cant accurate as well. Today blog, timed at 2 days ago... hahahahhaaa

Cut this topic. Since yesterday(sunday), i'm realise something. Is photograph skill matter. I thought C901 would be perfect for me. Actually, no matter good of my basic photograph skill, i can feel, there still have a lot of wall is blocking me to the path of improve cameraphone photograph skill. Although my friend feel impressed of a cameraphone can do such good result, yet, i know, I can do it even better. I need to learn to improve! For seek to learn better way of photographing, i need to learn basics of camera again, for gain knowledge.

Y so suddenly i said like tat? Coz, last 23rd and 24th, i help my friend(actually is my secondary school's classmate) take photograph. I notice the matter. Presenting few photos...


They really cute^^




we took at carrefour, sri petaling


In The Store, Sri Petaling




They take photo together. I like it as the photo is really clear, and they really pretty.

Erm... Yet i can feel i have a wide gaps to improve imaging quality with my Belove Sony Ericsosn C901. How do u think of those photo?

Take care every1.
Have a nice day!

Bad Saturday

haizzzz...
今天星期六算不好吧？没有事情做，那我到处逛，顺便去订货咯。之前我订W595，只是纳了订金。这次我决定买MPS100。因为它的音质比过去的喇叭更优良。照片如下：


在中午呢，我知道我的一个朋友（中学同班同学比较贴切吧？）- 翠雯，在金河做roadshow，我就特地过去那儿。不象平常的我吧？我看到她，比以前大不相同，人漂亮了，做事也很顺利；相反我呢？同年却不同运，我还是普通的打工族，几乎时时不顺...唉...当然，我替她高兴啦！
我还在台外拍了几张照...我也有点佩服我所用的C901!






她好像发觉到我的存在，希望她还会当我是朋友吧？因为上次我问她号码时，她并没有给我.算了...祝她一帆风顺！

心情交叉...

刚刚见过我的朋友阿雯，虽然年纪很小，可是她的经历不比我少。她看到我，立刻说出我“脸色不好，长期难眠，水量过少，心多牵挂”她还劝我别再等机会渺茫的事了.
我知道，机会很渺茫，纵使机会渺茫，我依然还叫我朋友留住W595粉红版...等她生日时我就给个"惊喜"给她...我就是希望奇迹会出现...或许你们这些朋友会说我妙想天开吧?她还在想其他人,我为什么还为她拼命呢?
就算有一丝机会,我也不想错过,苏州过后无船搭,错过,后悔也来不及!

想起一个故事

我睡不着，看三国历史，看了再看，突然脑海里想起了一件不好的事...

大约两至三年前，在柔佛某个独中，有一个女生转校到那儿。她姓马，她的样貌尚算美丽，身材苗条。从那时开始，她成为了众男生的焦点。可是，马同学却不肯和任何男生接触。
她的同班同学，姓黎的男生，是个非常静的男生，除了人问他之外，他根本不会主动说话。有关历史，他是个冷酷无情的人，无论多么凄惨的事情发生在外面，他的朋友或甚至自己身上，他都无动于衷。黎同学的怪作风，却引起马同学的注意，她竟然主动问黎同学为什么他有那种倾向。他只回答，他不想让任何人知道自己的想法。过后，马同学突然哭了。黎同学看到这样的情况，他竟然主动安慰马同学“别哭”。
第二天，马同学缺席。黎同学决定去探望马同学。在马同学的家，她的母亲也被惊吓，因为从来没有人曾探望马同学。黎同学看到马同学的样子无精打采，心稍不安。他留意了马同学的住家，在三间房中，发现有一间房内像是被冷落一段时间了，桌上还摆放着一个男子的照片。他问马同学的母亲：“请问那张照片里的男生是谁？”岂料，马同学非常激动，流泪。他见状，历劝她。好不容易她才冷静。等她睡着时，已近晚上。她母亲告诉了黎同学有关她的事：
“那张照片是她的哥哥。他还在世时，他就是她最亲的人。去年，她的哥哥因为失恋，喝醉酒，没想到会因为不清醒而侵犯了她。我知道这件事后，曾经痛骂他一番后，第二天，他竟然遇到车祸身亡。我最痛心的是我的女儿，她被伤害后，还失去最亲的哥哥。在她的心，永远有这两条刺。过后，她在学校几乎完全没有和任何男生交谈，就是这样，我看到你时也下了一跳。”
黎同学听了，也有感触，终于露出他的真正的一面 - 他带有悲伤，不是他冷漠无情的一面。他离开了马同学的家，他终于明白了为什么她在学校从来没有和男生接触，甚至交谈。第二天，马同学照常上课，她却向黎同学道歉，说：“对不起，昨天我那么激动，有伤害到你吗？谢谢你昨天来探望我。”他听到，竟然呆住了。她终于开口和他说话！就这样，他们俩一直都有联络，交谈；黎同学就只在马同学露出热情的一面，马同学终于稍微放开了，与他交谈并没有隔着墙的感觉。在他们的班上，所有男生看到他们如此熟络，都羡慕不已。
在她生日那天，黎同学去她家与她，和她的母亲，庆祝她的生日。她也感动了，因为除了她的家人外，第一次有朋友与她庆祝她生日。当天晚上，他们在屋外聊天。黎同学突然发问：“你愿不愿意我收你为我的妹妹，让我疼爱你，保护你吗？”马同学听到了，脸红了。他继续说了：“我知道你以前的遭遇，我不是同情你，是因为，我对你，仿佛有对妹妹的关心，疼爱的感觉；而你也缺少哥哥的爱。我们可以成为兄妹吗？”她听着，也感动流泪，激动地抱着他：“好，谢谢哥哥~”他也开心地搂着她。她的妈妈在屋内看到一切，心里终于放松了。从此，他们无论在学校，还是电话交谈中，他们俩是以兄妹相称。
可惜，好景并不长久。转眼已经一年了。在马同学的生日后的第二天，她突然失踪了。黎同学着急，不断寻找她，可惜，一直找不到。然后，几天过去了，有一群人告诉黎同学：“他的妹妹被一个帮派的老大相中了，可是她不肯接受，所以她被抓走了，现在位于那帮派的巢里。”原来，那群人原本是流氓，却因为曾经被他相救，或被狠狠修理过后，也改变了他们自己。他们特地调查，是为了帮助黎同学。
当天半夜，黎同学在他家，写了一封信。他拿起以前他的前女友留下的日本刀，虽然残旧，可是锋芒依然存在。他去了他妹妹的家，交了那封信给她的母亲，说道：“如果她回来时，请交这封信给她。”过后，他悄悄的走去那班歹徒的大本营。当时，那儿只剩下老大以及大约5个心腹。一抵达，他看见其中两个心腹在外面有打瞌睡的症兆，所以他先下手为强，快速抵达他们后面，用力打他们的颈后。他们晕倒了，黎同学就闯进了里面。那个帮派的老大与3个心腹也没有料到有人会闯进来，慌忙准备巴冷刀迎战。虽然他们早已准备，可是巴冷刀哪里比日本刀轻？一眨眼，黎同学割伤其中一个心腹的双手，他也惨叫一声，晕倒。然而，这激起他们的战斗心，与黎同学大战。黎同学心怯，毕竟他很久没有战斗。本来黎同学筋疲力尽，可是，当他看见马同学被绑在歹徒们的后面，他也提起精神，尽力防御，却被歹徒砍伤腰部。原本他们想趁黎同学受伤再一起
to be continued...

穿煲了...

昨天晚上,我终于又忍不住打电话给学妹了.本来我只是问候她,顺便邀请她找时间出来吃饭;怎知道,信息中,她只是一味拒绝,聊了一阵子,我却意外地说出了我的心地话.很羞...
原本我要隐瞒的,原来她早就已经发觉了,我只好打电话给她,老老实实的告诉她.临挂电话前,我还说了很傻的问题.其实,我和她也很清楚知道,纵使她的前男友对她有点过分,现在的她还对她的前男友还有一丝挂念.
不知道将来会怎样呢?如果天赐良机,我一定会好好把握,关心,疼爱女朋友...

yesterday night, i had call to jr again. initially only attempt to call her for appoint for lunch, yet, she decline by send sms. then, while we sms, i had tell her truth. paiseh...
i dun wan to let her know, but since she have noticed it, i had to tell her. before close conversation, i'd ask her silly question. actually, she and i know, even though of her ex had broke up with her, yet she still hoping of recover the relationship between her ex with her.
dunno la. wat'll happen in the future? if a good girl give me a chance, i'll appreciate it, i'll try my best to take care and love tat girl...

horrible!

last weekend, i kept training. i really uncomfortable without bring out my phone. seems my C901 brings lot of joy to me. while jogging, i really desperate to view blog or listen music, but i never do it, i really didnt bring phone. but, i don't have much time. the nightmare is comes to me. i had to survive. i can't be sacrificed for nth
well, 2 day passed. i view my junior blog again. i really can't contorl myself already. i can feel my emotional changed and unable to controlled as she sad or emo. damn...... thx of few friends still care of me while i training, sorry of never inform u. and thx jason, joyce and tata, my colleague, of concern
training will carry on next week. i hope she will better soon...
take care! bye~

train!

good day every1.
yesterday noon, i had received a mystery letter while i having rest. its quite make me mad, the letter contains of challanging. it also wrote of challange me upon of avenges lost of gf. i couldnt figure out of who was the girl actually. coz, i advice a lot of girls of dun too concentrate on love stuffs.
anyway, i had planned to leave without bring phone. i had to leave due of certain reason. moreover, the nightmare just start. i'd to train myself. i might wont able to have a touch with u all for a certain time. i wish all of u happy cny~
take care everyone!
take care to all my friends!
est, amy, tracy yap, take care!
and
tracy mah & shinny, take care!
dun worry, i not means to death or farewell, i'd just leave for certain time. we'll contact soon!

HANDPHONE FREAK IV

hi there. got few friends ask me of phone again. haha. really bz recently.

differeces between Sony Ericsson C901 & C903.
1.C901 is using Xenon Flash for photograph, LED light for video recording.
C903 is using LED light for both photograph and video recording.
it means C901 have advantage in terms of imaging, coz Xenon Flash even brighter than LED light, meanwhile brings better colour reproduction

2.C901 doesn't have image stabilizer, but still have video stabilizer
C903 have both image stabilizer and video stabilizer
it means, user had to hold C901 really steady as it dun have image stabilizer, yet, C903 have image stabilizer, which can fix a blurness from slightly shaky hands. but, it doesn't mean C901is not a good cameraphone la. coz, i also the C901 user. i know wat's it advantages

BEYOND FROM MY CONTROL!!!!

i dunno... recently i lost concentration. today i did a lot of mistake. luckily my friend didn't said anything. while play chess, i kept lost only. i wouldn't believe... i will lost control coz worried of friend.
everytime i view her blog. i just feel worried only. y? coz she likely too emo. as a friend, yet, i feel really helpless. everytime i sms her, or call her, i try to cheer her, but, i feel it doesn't work effectively. how should i do? her sadness had affected my concentration...
well, after friday, i won't bring phone out for certain purpose, for bout 1 weeks, i guess. coz, i dun wan too over concern of her, i dun wan she will turns to become hate me...

不想再想！

我开始觉得，我开始逃避。为什么呢？
最近，我竟然会为了一个我关心的学妹，几乎每天想办法安慰她。最近因为她和她男朋友分手，分手后的现在，她不但还带着悲伤，她还无心学习。没想到，她的存在，会让我久已冷却的心动摇了，影响我的集中力。刚才午饭时，我悄悄开了她新开的部落，我看了后，心有点酸的感觉，午饭后的工作，我的集中力破裂而犯了错误。我很久没有犯错咯。
她昨天还问我，问我之前问她“如果有人在她生日时送她生日礼物，还问她能否给那男生机会吗？”那个问题，为什么会问她，和那男生到底是谁。我只回答“其实我相信你已经有了答案了吧？”那已有一段时间了。我根本不想再提，因为，已经过了，而且，我怕，就算她现在知道我的隐喻，她也未必接受，甚至可能友情破裂。往年，以及现在，我也不想承认，但是，我的心知道。这个答案可能只有我知道吧？
我不想让她知道，因为我知道，她不可能会让我的。我只能暗地里祝福她。

I can feel, i am hiding. y?
Recently, i have initialtive to cheer my junior. She just brokeup with her bf, until now, her sadness affect her education. I wouldn't believe, her exist had affect me, affect my concentration. Just now, i view her blog as i finish my lunch. I feel helpless when i saw her blog. Then, lost concentration makes me did a mistake. WTH, i had long time didn't make mistake la!
Yesterday she ask me, regarding of I ask her in previous time, wat I ask is"If when ur birthday, some1 give present to u, and in same time request u to give the boy chances, will u accept?" She ask me y ask her like tat time and who the guy. I only answered"I guess u actually have answer, right?" It's been a while, and I dun wan to said it again. Coz, it passed. Moreover, I really fear. If she know answer, I afraid she won't accept it, fear of even lost a friend. Past, and now, I dun wan to admit. Yet, My heart knows. I think, only I know the answer.
I dun hope she know. I afraid of she won't accept when she know.
Wat can I do is, wishes her good luck...
Dun always sad. U r grown up. U should learn how to always be cheer even bad things comes...
Take care...

No enjoy time! Too short time for me to prepare.

After this coming sat, I won't let myself to delay! My last enjoy date is 16th. I will really serious of work and find way to earn more money to start college life. Never delay once again! I'll prove it, chi wai. Let's enjoy our last weekend this year!
Happy kampar life!

头疼的旅程！今天开始！

一眨眼已经过了一年了，我老了，已经两柴了却还没实现我的理想生活。。。
觉得人生很沉闷，愈来愈沉闷，已经跟中学时代的生活是截然不同了。。。大家有大家的新生活，我也投入在一个奇怪的世界。。。
两年前，我一直工作，当我从事电话销售那天开始，我忽略了不少我关心的朋友们，每当他们处于伤心时，我不断查电话的资料，为了自己和将来的介绍能力，我不断查，不断学，终于有两手能力帮自己和位朋友解决手机的毛病，不过，我觉得越来越孤独。。。也在五月时，我伤害了一个朋友。那时，因为我刚和前女友分手而觉得更孤单，她也和她的前男友分手，所以，她也接受尝试让我追求她，后来，她接受不了我，因为由始至终没有感情。虽然我知道，她早已有其他心仪的男生，我只是不想接受。。。结果，我的顽固的心伤害了她，过后我也没有心情而立即辞职手机销售，而开始流浪的生活，随便兼职，过得过且过的生活。当时，由于过闷，我想念以前的同学，学长和学弟妹们，我也曾经拨电给他们，但是，他们也有他们的念书生活，大部分也有伴侣，我也无法像以前一样能无禁忌的和他们聊天。。。
后来，七月，我有幸能在sony销售中心工作，和他们工作真是高兴，虽然我的愚钝搞到他们不时骂我，不过，我知道他们在教导我，我感谢他们。但是，我觉得我不配待在sony中心，因为，我知道我对sony erisson手机了如指掌，但对SLR，电视和手提电脑的理解能力并不好，所以，我决定离开，老实说，我很不舍得，尤其在最后一天当天，他们有order pizza给大家吃，算是最后的饯行吧。虽然我很不想离开，但是，我也离开中心，开始我的办公室工作了。。。
不知不觉，2009年12月了。。。我也过着无聊的生活，每当我知道学弟和学妹的恋爱出现问题时，有些甚至问我，我也只能安慰他们。由于我知道爱情的确难以抑制，所以我只好祝他们将来会更好。妹曾经问过我为什么我不找女朋友。我也只能若无其事地说随缘。其实，我特地把我的精神寄在工作上，好让我不要再有机会经历沉闷的生活。不过，我遇过一件非常不满的事，就是阿欣说我别再找她，因为她男友误会，而她想用多的时间爱她的男友，因为他们的恋情有变。当时，我气病了。没有心工作了，到今天，每况愈下，看了三次医生，就在今天，医生说我的身体纵使有摄取营养，由于某种原因，我的状况很差。他劝我那病假休息，天啊。。。我今年有很多计划呢，不能再怠慢了。我的理想生活的开始就是在今年内一定要完成！我不能再拖延了！
说回阿欣，我本来还很恼她，因为她宁愿叫我别再找她，好让她的男友不要再误会，也不要向他解释清楚。身为朋友的我，关心学妹，也不是罪吧？我承认，最近也拨多电话给她，那又有什么问题？我只是想找朋友，倾诉我的心事而已嘛，如果这样男友就误会，我觉得他太多疑！不过，当我看她的fb时，我也无话可说了。她太投入在爱的世界到无法自拔。理性的人，通常恋爱有变，我都会劝他/她分手，可是，我没有做到，我怕这样说，他们会再度怀疑我有心介入他们。可是，在朋友的立场，我也希望她这样做会挽救那份恋情，可是我说不出口，因为怕她不能再受打击了，如果分手后，我怕她会崩溃。唉。。。让天决定啦。。。往后的日子，我也难再关心我的好学妹了。。。
同期，我还厚着脸皮拨电话给曾经被我伤害过的那个朋友，原本我拨电话是想让她痛痛快快地臭骂，咀咒我，让我的心也好过，我也知道我的罪孽深重，也不期盼她原谅我；我也不能预料，她竟然原谅我，还问候我，我也说明后来所发生的一切给她知道。临睡前，我也有祝福她一帆风顺。
最近认识了一个朋友，她大我一年，可是她和其他人截然不同。她有很多话题聊，相反的，我有很多朋友却难找话题聊。感觉上她是个很好的女生。虽然我偶尔也会和她“熬电话粥”，不过我觉得蛮好，对着她，我没有觉得有闷的感觉。不过，我倒觉得想向她道歉，因为我的话题不多，怕会让她觉得无聊。
新年快到了，虽然在去年我早知道今年情人节和新年在同一天，但是，自从我开始工作至现在，几乎每个过节都是一个人度过。虽然有人劝我快找女朋友，至少有伴，但是，我总是说我不得空，没时间。没办法，不是一夕一朝的事，我不能强求，我怕我会再度伤害她人。
实在有太多的事要说呢。。。写不完。。。就此停歇。。。保重，大家！

爱情是什么?

爱情,到底是什么呢?有些人很注重爱情,有些人醉翁之意不在情.
有些是三分钟热度,有些谈恋爱有很久的时间.
其实,男/女方告白时,对方没有心仪的对象的话,如果对方肯给他/她机会谈恋爱,可能这就是开花.在结果之前,他/她们得经过无数的考验.真挚的爱情并不是每个人都可以拥有,而开花结果就是象征爱情的伟大.
在现今的腐败社会,爱情却转换成交易,有些美女就诱惑太子爷来达到富裕的生活.而穷困的夫妻却因为缺钱而吵架,甚至离婚,孩子们无辜得受苦.再这样下去,是否象征现今社会的道德观严重腐蚀呢?
如果有困难,有真挚爱情的夫妻不会因贫穷而有无谓的争执,相反的,他们会想办法帮助大家度过难关,因为他/她爱对方,不想对方受苦.
很多人也会搞不清喜欢和爱,喜欢有很多种的喜欢,爱就之有一个,就是不能失去他/她的.很多情侣就在恋爱时从单/双方方面的喜欢经过考验升华成为双方之间的爱.此时,这些人是值得恭喜.
朋友们,如果你之前对你的伴侣有喜欢的感觉,加油,因为他/她有给你机会和他/她谈恋爱.不用管对方有没有对你有好感,如果对方给了你机会,你要好好把握机会噢~
祝有情人终成眷属:-)

New Year Eve

Yesterday is year-end, 31st of dec. It's quite exciting
At morning till noon, working as usual, nothing rare to describe. I received something i not satisfied. The Amy send such moron msg just coz of she followed her bf's instruction. I really mad of it and i lost concentration & senses, yet increase anger. My brain messed...
The story started on night, 7pm.
I ride LRT from sri petaling to Hang Tuah and walk to Times Square. Then, Tracy mei said of she at above of gasoline. At there, she introduce her cousin, Huey Xin to me. We having dinner at Station Kopitiam. While dinner, they keep bully me, they just said of i rich. Konon rich... Only change new phone C901 only ma... As we finish eat, we just sit and chit chat only and wait for other person. He came finally. His name is Ju Ye, mei's another pet brother. Other than Huey Xin, 3 of us chat like "blow water" only(lazy to said the content). I kinda sry of didn't find any topic to chat with Huey Xin, she just keep silent only. Before we left the place, i paid for them, i promise mei b4 of i will treat her for her birthday treat. I hope mei will like it^^
The stories after out from Station Kopitiam...
We straight go to Sungei Wang main entrance. We feel really hot at main entrance. Too many ppl there for countdown. Few of actor and actress(only rmb of Bosco Wong is included) at main entrance, too. While they start concert, mei keep take photograph as their live show previewed at the opposite of concert. I feel funny of mei took photo, but i even wanted to laugh as i saw a lot of ppl take cameraphone and zoom to near the concert to record or take photo. They quite funny, coz it reallyyyyyyyy IMPOSSIBLE to get nice photo or video by cameraphone as they use digital zoom only, moreover the distance is really quite far, at least 20meter. We have take few photograph, too^^

Mei, Xin & me

Mei & Me^^

Smile~~~~ I like it

Ju Ye & Me

Me & Xin

Xin & Tracy~

Between 10pm to 11:50pm, there got lots ppl use bubble spray to spray everywhere. I had "polished" a lot. I had saw mei's head have a lot of bubbles, then i wipe it by my hands. I just wipe it coz she looks dislike tat. I had become her "shield" to block the bubbles. Finally we wait till 11.59pm, we started to countdown. Poops. 2009 is ended and now is 1st of January 2010. After countdown, Ju Yi leaved Sungei Wang. Then, we go ride monorail to Hang Tuah. Honestly, i not really wanted to split with them coz i wish to chat with them, but i had to split for certain reason.
At 2am, i still wandering around OUG. I couldn't sleep. I listen songs by use handsfree and keep wandering until 3am. Then, i rmb a lot things...
Passed a year and a year, older 1 year and 1 more year... I felt of i haven't acheived a lot of things. Wat things a man should have? Money? I dun have. Driving licenses? I even't sisn't start undang course. Funny right? I dun feel funny... I wasted a lot time and money to ex, Alice. Now she follow others. I borrow her a lot, yet she didn't even payback even 1 cent. It stucked me to step forward. Girlfriend? I really desired yet scared to find. Coz, i know it's not time to find right now. I still have few things need to settle. But, i kinda hope got soon. I need to strengthen my spirit, just as wat Mrs. Khaw told me last month. She told of a person who without strong spirit may can't do things smooth.
I needed to acheived few things,
1, needed earn more money, to give my family and myself have better life.
2, learn driving license b4 june, and try get 2nd hand car as well.
3, learn more detail of handphone, music systems, the way of using SLR camera, IT knowledge
4, if i got girlfriend 1 day, i won't abandon her, and i wil concern her and love her. (although low possibly, but, if really got, i won't disappoint her anymore)
While i reached home, i just keep listen musics until 7am. I received a lot new year greetings msg from friends, even my "rare use" K810 also have few. Yet, i kinda bored at early morning. I called Huey Xin for short chat. She quite talkative, really different than tat time we meet. I really happy of know her, and we chat a lot at tat morning. And, i kinda sry of i didn't open my topic much. Hope we can chat more when we meet.
Ended....

Last, wish all my friends, mei, family,
~Happy New Year~