i am in forbidden well...

hi. it's been a while time didnt update my blog. well, i think i'm suffer more than happy.
in these 1 month, i couldn't slp well, mostly 4 to 5 hours, seldom have nice nap. why i damn stupid? like some1 i shouldn't like, want to tried to forget it but failed. haizzz.... why this time i have such moron mind? why i need to worried some1 who had like others? she also not often to chat with me but more often chat to "him". i don't want to mention here, and i will try to not let more ppl know as well. well, i guess, i nid even better solution...