Sunday
Today morning, I woke up really late, bout 9am. I kinda rush of prepare to skating at sungei wang with conny and her friends. Luckily I arrived at 11am sharp.
Initially we having lunch at old town at times square, I not satisfied of the way waiter's service. If dun have breakfast set at weekend, y dun tell me earlier? Waste my time only. Then, I order bread and drinks, but, they serve bread without drink, till when we attempt to leave then they serve drinks. Apa la...
After the lunch, we head to sungei wang for skating. It's my 1st time to skating. While I wear the roller shoes, I realise of it's not easy to balance while roll faster. Zzz... Gratefully of I learned to balance while roll faster. Then, I keep training untill 4pm.
While training, I had almost fall down coz of a girl hit me. I go to help her from fall down. Then, Conny ask me how's my feeling to help beauty? I no idea? Coz I dunno who was she. But, I wish to know most of them yet I didn't does.
Finally dinner time, it quite normal only la, no need mention lor. Haha... Finish skating story at sungei wang...
I chat with my friend, then he ask me of whether I still miss 'her' or finding other gf. Well, I am consider of waiting for other girl, who oh? Dun wan mention now. Can't predict... Coz not all girls accept to start relationship life. Then how? Wait lor...
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
chrismas over!
today is 26th. heavy rain right now. bored...
yesterday is quite bored, too... last few years till last year, i didn't celebrate and working instead. but, ytd, reallyyyyyyy bored. i only have appointment with 1 friend on dinner time. from morning, i nvr slp for whole early morning, but instead i only listen songs and play chess.
well, i have received many friend's chrismas greeting. but, my tears dropped once again, with touched feel. 1 of my junior greet me. i used to concern her all the time even graduated. consider of i used to like her la. next year she facing spm, i wish she can live better and better.
the story begins at 2pm. i waiting for buses to go mid valley, coz siew lee work there. i arrived mid valley too early than dinner time. really bored over there ARHHH... i walk over jusco for buy some clothes and shoes. due of insufficient funds, i only brought a shoes and shirt. DAMN! only 2 thins need RM85!!! summore ned wait at cashier counter for more than 1 hour to let TRAINEE CASHIER TO SLOWLY SCAN AND PACK. sigh... when finish payment, 5.10pm, i late lorh, scared siew lee scold me. luckiy she didn't scold me tat time. we having dinner at oasis food court. we's chat a lot, but i dunwan mention la, P&C ma... haha.
at night, nth to do... only play chess & music. i like the MPS-70, coz i can use tat speaker even charging my phone. hahahaaaaa..
yesterday is quite bored, too... last few years till last year, i didn't celebrate and working instead. but, ytd, reallyyyyyyy bored. i only have appointment with 1 friend on dinner time. from morning, i nvr slp for whole early morning, but instead i only listen songs and play chess.
well, i have received many friend's chrismas greeting. but, my tears dropped once again, with touched feel. 1 of my junior greet me. i used to concern her all the time even graduated. consider of i used to like her la. next year she facing spm, i wish she can live better and better.
the story begins at 2pm. i waiting for buses to go mid valley, coz siew lee work there. i arrived mid valley too early than dinner time. really bored over there ARHHH... i walk over jusco for buy some clothes and shoes. due of insufficient funds, i only brought a shoes and shirt. DAMN! only 2 thins need RM85!!! summore ned wait at cashier counter for more than 1 hour to let TRAINEE CASHIER TO SLOWLY SCAN AND PACK. sigh... when finish payment, 5.10pm, i late lorh, scared siew lee scold me. luckiy she didn't scold me tat time. we having dinner at oasis food court. we's chat a lot, but i dunwan mention la, P&C ma... haha.
at night, nth to do... only play chess & music. i like the MPS-70, coz i can use tat speaker even charging my phone. hahahaaaaa..
Friday, December 25, 2009
Have an sadness at early chrismas morning...
Finally is Chrismas. And yet, I not happy at all. I'm numb... A whole early morning walking at 4th road again and again... Tears silently fall around road, without ppl noticed...
Wat I worried all the time, is may possibly happened soon... Since early of tis year, I really rare to have a chance to meet my good friend, Ai Hwa. She is a nice, kind girl. I never lie nor keep secret than tell her, she's 1 of friend I trust most. I had told her b4, of I may lost contact soon with 1 friend soon, and I really sad of losing connection with her. She maybe dunno of, actually I mention is her.
B4 she having exam, I seldom able to c her. Everytime I saw her thin body, I worried of her. Scared she can't cope stress. Then, I calling her for cheer her as I free time.
She finally finish stpm exam. Yet, I feel even uncomfortable as she afraid of her performance on exam. I try to cheer her up and hoping she always positive... But, I become emo, when I know of she maybe study at overseas and won't contact any1. Although is maybe, yet, I really sad. Y? I dun have chances to reconnect with her anymore, even she may come back 1 day, she might won't contact me for lots of reason(most probably of they may shift house, or we won't meet anymore, I guess)... I really afraid... My heart started to pain again... I keep wandering outside, really hope of may have a chances to look her faces.
I'd back to home b4 sunrise. And I started to look photo album. I look standard 3 & 5. I only look on her. She beside yong ting at standard 3, she beside pick khim at standard 5. She looks gloomy at both photo. I really rare to c her smiles at primary school. Since graduate primary school, I really miss most primary school friends, especially yong ting and her. Sometimes i thanks god give me chances to reconnect with her, really coincidence of meet at market. Y I keep talk bout her? I really appreciate of have a really nice friend like her. I had learn many things when I same class with her. Then I feel album had wet...
虽天下无不散之延席,但是我非常不舍得她,更不要就这样与她永远失去联络. If she really having further study at overseas, I really hope, really hoping of she will save my number, and reconnect with me if she remember me...
Wat I worried all the time, is may possibly happened soon... Since early of tis year, I really rare to have a chance to meet my good friend, Ai Hwa. She is a nice, kind girl. I never lie nor keep secret than tell her, she's 1 of friend I trust most. I had told her b4, of I may lost contact soon with 1 friend soon, and I really sad of losing connection with her. She maybe dunno of, actually I mention is her.
B4 she having exam, I seldom able to c her. Everytime I saw her thin body, I worried of her. Scared she can't cope stress. Then, I calling her for cheer her as I free time.
She finally finish stpm exam. Yet, I feel even uncomfortable as she afraid of her performance on exam. I try to cheer her up and hoping she always positive... But, I become emo, when I know of she maybe study at overseas and won't contact any1. Although is maybe, yet, I really sad. Y? I dun have chances to reconnect with her anymore, even she may come back 1 day, she might won't contact me for lots of reason(most probably of they may shift house, or we won't meet anymore, I guess)... I really afraid... My heart started to pain again... I keep wandering outside, really hope of may have a chances to look her faces.
I'd back to home b4 sunrise. And I started to look photo album. I look standard 3 & 5. I only look on her. She beside yong ting at standard 3, she beside pick khim at standard 5. She looks gloomy at both photo. I really rare to c her smiles at primary school. Since graduate primary school, I really miss most primary school friends, especially yong ting and her. Sometimes i thanks god give me chances to reconnect with her, really coincidence of meet at market. Y I keep talk bout her? I really appreciate of have a really nice friend like her. I had learn many things when I same class with her. Then I feel album had wet...
虽天下无不散之延席,但是我非常不舍得她,更不要就这样与她永远失去联络. If she really having further study at overseas, I really hope, really hoping of she will save my number, and reconnect with me if she remember me...
Friday, December 18, 2009
yoyo brudder! HANDPHONE FREAK IV
yo wassup every1!? how r u all?
i just switched to C901 recently. i can confirm of it was a best phone i ever used until now!
WHY?
1st, it 2.2inch screen, even bigger and bright than K810i, moreover it slim and handy, rather easy to hold than bulky K810i.
2nd, 3.5G makes me browse internet even FASTER! i had tried via USB to my sister's pc and chi wai's laptop. ABSOLUTELY FAST! i stopped all idea of get any fixed line or broadband.
3rd, it have MegaBass, i had enjoyed even better sound system by use HPM-77. Realllyyyyyy POWERFULLLLL!
4th, it's CAMERA TIME! feel urself and enjoy!
Auto Mode
Twilight Landscape Mode. Really bright!
Twilight Protrait Mode. I think consider okok lor....
Auto Mode with Xenon Flash. Quite Sharp!!! I like it!
i just switched to C901 recently. i can confirm of it was a best phone i ever used until now!
WHY?
1st, it 2.2inch screen, even bigger and bright than K810i, moreover it slim and handy, rather easy to hold than bulky K810i.
2nd, 3.5G makes me browse internet even FASTER! i had tried via USB to my sister's pc and chi wai's laptop. ABSOLUTELY FAST! i stopped all idea of get any fixed line or broadband.
3rd, it have MegaBass, i had enjoyed even better sound system by use HPM-77. Realllyyyyyy POWERFULLLLL!
4th, it's CAMERA TIME! feel urself and enjoy!
Auto Mode
Twilight Landscape Mode. Really bright!
Twilight Protrait Mode. I think consider okok lor....
Auto Mode with Xenon Flash. Quite Sharp!!! I like it!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
it's update time!
it's been awhile i didn't i had update my blog. haha. recently quite complicated!
just now i had tried with my friend's pc. i founded new issues. even though my friend is genuine os, yet, i failed to use my k810 as a mobile modem via usb. i think it's due of lacking of software in pc. sigh
recently a lot things need to settle... lucky of my soul had pull back to normal. thx to esther's kindness. i won't waste my time to look for impossible things. i wish to say "farewell" to person whom arrogant and doesn't concern of me.
(to be continued...)
just now i had tried with my friend's pc. i founded new issues. even though my friend is genuine os, yet, i failed to use my k810 as a mobile modem via usb. i think it's due of lacking of software in pc. sigh
recently a lot things need to settle... lucky of my soul had pull back to normal. thx to esther's kindness. i won't waste my time to look for impossible things. i wish to say "farewell" to person whom arrogant and doesn't concern of me.
(to be continued...)
Friday, November 27, 2009
祝福~
嗨,我家的电脑已经“进院”了.没办法,看不到华文字,加上RAM不大,每天hang...相信会有一段时间没有用电脑上网,也没有办法留comment给大家...
刚才早上五点,我独自在balakong的某个公园环绕.环绕中,我累了,我就坐在凳子上休息.有某人也在我休息时坐在我隔壁.那人便问我：“请问你是华联的Vincent吗？”我呆住了,为何有人会认识我呢？那人说他在蕉赖听我的大名,说什么感谢我能帮到他的朋友.他并没有报上我的姓名,我哪知他到底是谁哦？我更不晓得他的朋友是何人.当我想知道他是“何方神圣”时,他也离开公园了.
最近大家的命运很像撞邪似的...而我也几乎掉入无底深潭.过去一段时间,我也因为没有女朋友,心里觉得很空虚.再者,我的好友也去了怡保也有一段时间,他的状况也难晓得,其他人都为了考试而不断忙碌,我也想认识新的朋友,也期望能交到要好的朋友.不料,有人偏偏不肯坦白,我对人坦白,她却不断创造故事,有不少好友也劝我别找她,可是,我总觉得她算是可信之友,我只能期望她能坦白.只能希望大家的未来会更好,祝大家运气更佳~
首先,我的好友,艾华...我知道最近你忙于stpm,别气馁,过去的就任由它过去吧,只好考试后,为将来的事重新计划吧.加油哦~我永远会支持你的！
汉升,我知道你本性是个非常坚强的人,即使stpm,你也丝毫没有露出紧张恐惧的感觉.你很劲!考试后，我会找机会找你聊天下棋的,哈哈！
接下来...
心夜,我很同情你的遭遇...虽然这些事会让人不愉快,不过,你要坚强哦.以后你得更小心,别随便自己一个人哦.如果你需要帮忙,你尽管说,我能帮到你的,我一定帮你~我衷心祝你未来会更好~
Cassie,爱情这类事,我帮不到你啦,毕竟我是外人.那天你叫我听你指定的歌,我听了过后,我明白你现在的感受.所谓“旁观者清,当局者迷”,我能说的是,请你振作起来！你要活得更加精彩,这样你的家人,和你的前男友也不会再担心你的.祝你未来更愉快！
我也累了,昨晚没有睡觉,下次再写blog吧.
刚才早上五点,我独自在balakong的某个公园环绕.环绕中,我累了,我就坐在凳子上休息.有某人也在我休息时坐在我隔壁.那人便问我：“请问你是华联的Vincent吗？”我呆住了,为何有人会认识我呢？那人说他在蕉赖听我的大名,说什么感谢我能帮到他的朋友.他并没有报上我的姓名,我哪知他到底是谁哦？我更不晓得他的朋友是何人.当我想知道他是“何方神圣”时,他也离开公园了.
最近大家的命运很像撞邪似的...而我也几乎掉入无底深潭.过去一段时间,我也因为没有女朋友,心里觉得很空虚.再者,我的好友也去了怡保也有一段时间,他的状况也难晓得,其他人都为了考试而不断忙碌,我也想认识新的朋友,也期望能交到要好的朋友.不料,有人偏偏不肯坦白,我对人坦白,她却不断创造故事,有不少好友也劝我别找她,可是,我总觉得她算是可信之友,我只能期望她能坦白.只能希望大家的未来会更好,祝大家运气更佳~
首先,我的好友,艾华...我知道最近你忙于stpm,别气馁,过去的就任由它过去吧,只好考试后,为将来的事重新计划吧.加油哦~我永远会支持你的！
汉升,我知道你本性是个非常坚强的人,即使stpm,你也丝毫没有露出紧张恐惧的感觉.你很劲!考试后，我会找机会找你聊天下棋的,哈哈！
接下来...
心夜,我很同情你的遭遇...虽然这些事会让人不愉快,不过,你要坚强哦.以后你得更小心,别随便自己一个人哦.如果你需要帮忙,你尽管说,我能帮到你的,我一定帮你~我衷心祝你未来会更好~
Cassie,爱情这类事,我帮不到你啦,毕竟我是外人.那天你叫我听你指定的歌,我听了过后,我明白你现在的感受.所谓“旁观者清,当局者迷”,我能说的是,请你振作起来！你要活得更加精彩,这样你的家人,和你的前男友也不会再担心你的.祝你未来更愉快！
我也累了,昨晚没有睡觉,下次再写blog吧.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
我很没用...
我最近很失落,往往觉得做好人实在很难.这个不行,那个不通;该如何是好?
早上六点,我收拾房间,准备丢掉没用或没有留念价值的东西.收拾中,我找到妈妈的遗物.我呆住了,我傻傻地看着它,想起往事...
十多年前,我是个无知的小豆丁.从未想过将来.我算是在妈妈的保护下成长.当时的我,有时候不是受伤,就是为家人带来麻烦.后来,五年前,我和家人都沮丧了...妈妈已经被证实患上癌症.当晚,妈妈和我吃宵夜.她说:
"铭铭,做人最重要是对待人如对自己.如果你要对他人好,首先就要对自己好.别自私,要善心."
当年年头,起初我因为妈妈的病情却帮不到她而暴躁,不自爱,年中,我感觉到人生的残酷,我清楚知道人生的道理,我开始改变自己,尽量别依赖别人,学习自立.在我妈妈临终前,她觉得我已经变好,声称能安心.
五年了,我就是在缺乏母爱的环境下生存.我除了对家人朋友没有疑忌,我甚少和陌生人打交道...
早上六点,我收拾房间,准备丢掉没用或没有留念价值的东西.收拾中,我找到妈妈的遗物.我呆住了,我傻傻地看着它,想起往事...
十多年前,我是个无知的小豆丁.从未想过将来.我算是在妈妈的保护下成长.当时的我,有时候不是受伤,就是为家人带来麻烦.后来,五年前,我和家人都沮丧了...妈妈已经被证实患上癌症.当晚,妈妈和我吃宵夜.她说:
"铭铭,做人最重要是对待人如对自己.如果你要对他人好,首先就要对自己好.别自私,要善心."
当年年头,起初我因为妈妈的病情却帮不到她而暴躁,不自爱,年中,我感觉到人生的残酷,我清楚知道人生的道理,我开始改变自己,尽量别依赖别人,学习自立.在我妈妈临终前,她觉得我已经变好,声称能安心.
五年了,我就是在缺乏母爱的环境下生存.我除了对家人朋友没有疑忌,我甚少和陌生人打交道...
Monday, November 23, 2009
grateful day
23/11/2009, 7pm
as i mention just now, i didn't slp last night. but, it doesn't affect my work at morning. but it opposite while lunch hour.
i can hear my friend's sound. the sound was a boy's sound, really soft. i had long time didn't heard such gentle sound, since i start work. he told me,
"vincent, be strong. u used to be a nice guy. although i feel u annoying, i know u're sincere guy. although until today, i still dun like u, yet, i still think u as my bro."
brother? i have no idea, coz, sound really gentle. gentle guy? i really dun have idea who was he. and, how he know wat i feel?
"mayb u forgot who am i. it's been 6 years ago. and, thx of ur advice while at saujana."
saujana? i really dun have idea who was he. chin kuan? his sound was deep. shu pin? i dun think so. he a great guy. who owh? i dun have any idea in such short time.
"juz be urself, as long as u r right, dun nid think any thoughts from other ppl. juz be a right vincent. 1 day, u may get more than wat u needs. u have few nice girl who made u as their brother, right? it proved u r nice guy and wat u done was right"
how he know? who the guy? i dun have any appetite, and instead, i would like to know who the person. the, i saw a person stand beside me, and he face other place and leave my side. i wanted chase, but, i can't move fast, coz, i feel my eyes and leg too tired, failed to chase or even identify the person.
mayb u think it's likely a tale, but, i think it's was realistic. coz, i can feel of temperature of food, and environment.
ya, i was happy of i had reconnect with my sis, esther. she's really a nice girl. even she busy of her college works, she cares of me. i love her very much. hope brother's loves can be eternity. she also only few person which i can believe much without any suspicious among all i know.
i had friend back with chi wai, my "brother". he also 1 of them who dislikes my hot-tempered attitude. coz of my hot-tempered, he decided to ignore me "permenant". of coz i regret of mad with him. i tried my best to treat him better within these 2 years. at 1st he kept insult me, but, finally he forgives me.
i learn from han seng, my chess friend, he kept me teach me of be positives always. no matter how pressure he face, he only smiles.
only few person i can fully believe, chi wai, ken low, esther, han seng...
as i mention just now, i didn't slp last night. but, it doesn't affect my work at morning. but it opposite while lunch hour.
i can hear my friend's sound. the sound was a boy's sound, really soft. i had long time didn't heard such gentle sound, since i start work. he told me,
"vincent, be strong. u used to be a nice guy. although i feel u annoying, i know u're sincere guy. although until today, i still dun like u, yet, i still think u as my bro."
brother? i have no idea, coz, sound really gentle. gentle guy? i really dun have idea who was he. and, how he know wat i feel?
"mayb u forgot who am i. it's been 6 years ago. and, thx of ur advice while at saujana."
saujana? i really dun have idea who was he. chin kuan? his sound was deep. shu pin? i dun think so. he a great guy. who owh? i dun have any idea in such short time.
"juz be urself, as long as u r right, dun nid think any thoughts from other ppl. juz be a right vincent. 1 day, u may get more than wat u needs. u have few nice girl who made u as their brother, right? it proved u r nice guy and wat u done was right"
how he know? who the guy? i dun have any appetite, and instead, i would like to know who the person. the, i saw a person stand beside me, and he face other place and leave my side. i wanted chase, but, i can't move fast, coz, i feel my eyes and leg too tired, failed to chase or even identify the person.
mayb u think it's likely a tale, but, i think it's was realistic. coz, i can feel of temperature of food, and environment.
ya, i was happy of i had reconnect with my sis, esther. she's really a nice girl. even she busy of her college works, she cares of me. i love her very much. hope brother's loves can be eternity. she also only few person which i can believe much without any suspicious among all i know.
i had friend back with chi wai, my "brother". he also 1 of them who dislikes my hot-tempered attitude. coz of my hot-tempered, he decided to ignore me "permenant". of coz i regret of mad with him. i tried my best to treat him better within these 2 years. at 1st he kept insult me, but, finally he forgives me.
i learn from han seng, my chess friend, he kept me teach me of be positives always. no matter how pressure he face, he only smiles.
only few person i can fully believe, chi wai, ken low, esther, han seng...
I so complicated
Now is 7am, i couldn't sleep but only wondering while lying on bed.
Actually, "she" which i mention in those post within this month, eve. Last 2 months, i had reconnect with her. Untill now, i finally feel of how complicated.
at begins of this year, she give me my number.
at sept, i sms with her(i still keep the msg, i dun wan to list more.)
"wanted to concentrate to study"
"dun have any attention of relationship life."
...
then, last month, i had chat with her. i think u all will thought of how come i call her so suddenly even i bz of sony's stuff. i rmb of her, then i use company pc for online. even joyce scold me of use company pc for my own purpose, i ignore only. darren even crazy, said i viewing gf's blog. i dun have gf recently he also said thus. i view her blog. i can feel how sad she was... then i call her,
she said she just broke up with her bf. then, i chat with her and kept something hope to cheer her up. then, the complicated part started...
at november, while i call her, a boy pick up my call. he exclaim himself as his bf and he said she go nilai for study. tat night, she msg me of dun call her often as bf dun likes. hey? i nvr know of can go nilai from kl within such short 20minute? well, the further part...
at last wed, she call me to have a drink at pub. and, she exclaim of she's single. y she wanted to exclaim? i dunno. well, at tat time, wat i know of she's a complicated person.
now, it's main point. i call her last night, but i cant listen any sound. then, msg come list of he's ex bf and now he take back tat number. but, i know wat's truth behind, actually. but, i really dun wan say anymore... coz, it's a question of whether she accept me as friend or no. i never lie to a person who i not know much, but, she gives me a lot of complicated things. so, i really dunno whether i should continued to find her or vice versa?
Actually, "she" which i mention in those post within this month, eve. Last 2 months, i had reconnect with her. Untill now, i finally feel of how complicated.
at begins of this year, she give me my number.
at sept, i sms with her(i still keep the msg, i dun wan to list more.)
"wanted to concentrate to study"
"dun have any attention of relationship life."
...
then, last month, i had chat with her. i think u all will thought of how come i call her so suddenly even i bz of sony's stuff. i rmb of her, then i use company pc for online. even joyce scold me of use company pc for my own purpose, i ignore only. darren even crazy, said i viewing gf's blog. i dun have gf recently he also said thus. i view her blog. i can feel how sad she was... then i call her,
she said she just broke up with her bf. then, i chat with her and kept something hope to cheer her up. then, the complicated part started...
at november, while i call her, a boy pick up my call. he exclaim himself as his bf and he said she go nilai for study. tat night, she msg me of dun call her often as bf dun likes. hey? i nvr know of can go nilai from kl within such short 20minute? well, the further part...
at last wed, she call me to have a drink at pub. and, she exclaim of she's single. y she wanted to exclaim? i dunno. well, at tat time, wat i know of she's a complicated person.
now, it's main point. i call her last night, but i cant listen any sound. then, msg come list of he's ex bf and now he take back tat number. but, i know wat's truth behind, actually. but, i really dun wan say anymore... coz, it's a question of whether she accept me as friend or no. i never lie to a person who i not know much, but, she gives me a lot of complicated things. so, i really dunno whether i should continued to find her or vice versa?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
speechless
finally turn to 22/11/2009 12pm.
in these 12 hour, my body's energy kept pumping up, make myself couldn't slp. i watch astro at mei's house with ryan & mei for almost 6 hour, then ryan fetch me to my home at 6am. but, i nvr enter my home, instead, i just wandering & wondering.
wat's my purpose to live? wat's my purpose to play chess? wat's my purpose to know new friends?
i really dun hav idea of wat i live for. i play chess isit only find stronger player n know new chess friend? i only know y i looking for new friends. got some1 ask me of tat question at thursday. y i wanted to know more bout her even though she have few bad habits? wat i can say is, as long as the person is a human with kind-heart, i wish to know more bout the person. she(my other friend) ask me once again this morning, even though i kinda hopeless to received her reply, i still tell my friend of i still believe on her. dunno wat i think, afterall...
at 8am, i had moved to happy garden, i saw few boys bully a girl. when i saw them, i just go simply scold them and they escaped. while i saw the girl injured, i rmb last month.
in the morning, i walk to bus stop opposite of central supermarket. it needs take 20 minutes time from my home. while on the way, i saw my ex-classmate, she with her bf. and then she talk with me with impolite sentences, then her bf kept said things which insult poor youngster, included me. ya i'm poor, then wat? at least i more polite than those fucking rich but irritating guy. while he continue crapping, i had release my anger and thrown him to the garden and kept punish him. i dun bother the guy yell, as he yell, i even rough. as long as i heard insulting sentence, i release more anger. then, finally, his apologized and i stopped. after 1 month, i saw him again, he go other way as he saw me.
well, i hope tat girl will ok soon. i kinda weird of i goes help a stranger like tat
at 10am, i reach market near my home, and i having breakfast. i feel of i need more physical training, as i can feel of i still lacking of a lot of strength...
in these 12 hour, my body's energy kept pumping up, make myself couldn't slp. i watch astro at mei's house with ryan & mei for almost 6 hour, then ryan fetch me to my home at 6am. but, i nvr enter my home, instead, i just wandering & wondering.
wat's my purpose to live? wat's my purpose to play chess? wat's my purpose to know new friends?
i really dun hav idea of wat i live for. i play chess isit only find stronger player n know new chess friend? i only know y i looking for new friends. got some1 ask me of tat question at thursday. y i wanted to know more bout her even though she have few bad habits? wat i can say is, as long as the person is a human with kind-heart, i wish to know more bout the person. she(my other friend) ask me once again this morning, even though i kinda hopeless to received her reply, i still tell my friend of i still believe on her. dunno wat i think, afterall...
at 8am, i had moved to happy garden, i saw few boys bully a girl. when i saw them, i just go simply scold them and they escaped. while i saw the girl injured, i rmb last month.
in the morning, i walk to bus stop opposite of central supermarket. it needs take 20 minutes time from my home. while on the way, i saw my ex-classmate, she with her bf. and then she talk with me with impolite sentences, then her bf kept said things which insult poor youngster, included me. ya i'm poor, then wat? at least i more polite than those fucking rich but irritating guy. while he continue crapping, i had release my anger and thrown him to the garden and kept punish him. i dun bother the guy yell, as he yell, i even rough. as long as i heard insulting sentence, i release more anger. then, finally, his apologized and i stopped. after 1 month, i saw him again, he go other way as he saw me.
well, i hope tat girl will ok soon. i kinda weird of i goes help a stranger like tat
at 10am, i reach market near my home, and i having breakfast. i feel of i need more physical training, as i can feel of i still lacking of a lot of strength...
Bad dreams
22th of nov, 2am
this evening, i go to church, due of queenie call me to go over there. at there, i only feel blurred... coz, i 1st time go church. well, at least i behaved well over there, didn't create any commotion.
i listen song at mei's home, with ryan, and mei. I really can't slp in these few days.
I'm fear...
I was wondering, was she's lying? I dunno... All the time, i mix with lots ppl easily, but not tis time. I can feel, i can't mix with her, mayb was certain facts i mention b4... I dunno wat's she think... Sometimes she dun reply, sometimes 'bf' disturb me, etc...
this evening, i go to church, due of queenie call me to go over there. at there, i only feel blurred... coz, i 1st time go church. well, at least i behaved well over there, didn't create any commotion.
i listen song at mei's home, with ryan, and mei. I really can't slp in these few days.
I'm fear...
I was wondering, was she's lying? I dunno... All the time, i mix with lots ppl easily, but not tis time. I can feel, i can't mix with her, mayb was certain facts i mention b4... I dunno wat's she think... Sometimes she dun reply, sometimes 'bf' disturb me, etc...
Saturday, November 21, 2009
the path of unknown... dizzy
21/11/2009 12pm
today is lai kuan birthday. wish her happy birthday. i wonder will their family back from trip and celebrate her birthday?
as result, i didnt slp last night, keep waiting for 2 person's call. 1 of them is chi wai, he seems too tired to handle himself. another 1... i lazy to talk... i dunno la...
2am, i go out and keep raging myself, running n running, even tired, i still moving, i can feel of i'm torturing myself more than training. while i'm back from outside, it's 4am, then i pick up my phone and i saw msg, it's rather sickening me... i dun wan explain, 1 of my friend was become victims of lost virginity and she's vanished recently. i kinda shamed of become male, y they only thought of sexual more important than love? i'm kinda mad of my friend's incident, but how? i can't go avenge, coz it's their matter, i can't mix them to settle it!
frankly speaking, i hoping to have gf, and i'm believe of love feeling can be created through concern, communication, and most important is cares. if use virgin to get couple, it's not love, it's just like simply having sexual intercourse as their needs. i dunno wat's ur opinion la, afterall.
recently i does only find answer of my theory, i know i nt suitable to use words "theory", coz i not neither inventor nor genuis, i only a person who really wanted to get answers. regarding of handphone FAQ, i afraid i cant tell u all right now, coz my pc is slow, do u believed i still using windows ME and RAM is below 1GB? it's fact, thus i can't search answers for u all.
i feel i really tired... y nobody help me? my best friend is not around my side, i kinda afraid to communicate with "friends" besida me, as long i know they have intention to use something from me. i really hoping to get a sincere friend, if the sincere is my gf, even better, coz wat's important of couple is "believe each other"...
i, think, the path of be a professionalism is widen...
today is lai kuan birthday. wish her happy birthday. i wonder will their family back from trip and celebrate her birthday?
as result, i didnt slp last night, keep waiting for 2 person's call. 1 of them is chi wai, he seems too tired to handle himself. another 1... i lazy to talk... i dunno la...
2am, i go out and keep raging myself, running n running, even tired, i still moving, i can feel of i'm torturing myself more than training. while i'm back from outside, it's 4am, then i pick up my phone and i saw msg, it's rather sickening me... i dun wan explain, 1 of my friend was become victims of lost virginity and she's vanished recently. i kinda shamed of become male, y they only thought of sexual more important than love? i'm kinda mad of my friend's incident, but how? i can't go avenge, coz it's their matter, i can't mix them to settle it!
frankly speaking, i hoping to have gf, and i'm believe of love feeling can be created through concern, communication, and most important is cares. if use virgin to get couple, it's not love, it's just like simply having sexual intercourse as their needs. i dunno wat's ur opinion la, afterall.
recently i does only find answer of my theory, i know i nt suitable to use words "theory", coz i not neither inventor nor genuis, i only a person who really wanted to get answers. regarding of handphone FAQ, i afraid i cant tell u all right now, coz my pc is slow, do u believed i still using windows ME and RAM is below 1GB? it's fact, thus i can't search answers for u all.
i feel i really tired... y nobody help me? my best friend is not around my side, i kinda afraid to communicate with "friends" besida me, as long i know they have intention to use something from me. i really hoping to get a sincere friend, if the sincere is my gf, even better, coz wat's important of couple is "believe each other"...
i, think, the path of be a professionalism is widen...
Friday, November 20, 2009
Continued nightmare@.@
It's a day again...
20/11/2009, 2am... I couldn't sleep well within these few weeks since october ago. I feel like i'm still under a war, a war which had made me weak...
In last week, i can feel of my mind cant focus on the job, kept thinking of crap. My weird reaction had get attention by Jack, my colleague. zzz... I had bout time didnt experience it.
Yong ting, ur advice kept surrounding at both my ears and brain, and yet, i couldn't did it. Sry... Wat i think is, yong ting had broke friendship with me, yet, i reli appreciate wat she help me, without her, without me. Yong ting's story stopped here.
I call her, msg her, n ask her, yet, she never reply to me, at night. I really worried whether she really accept me as her friend n allowed me to know more bout her? Just now, i have a chit chat with my friend of tat girl i know recently, most of them tell me not to closed with her, due of she's smoker n rude girl, moreover often speak bad words. lol, i dun care of it. Tat's her natural attitude, i like it. But, i wonder she may accept me as her friend or no... She look really like Shu Yee, my ex-supervisor. Look 80% same, also often scold bad word and impolite.
She told me of she read my blog last night, the content said she still consider of we're still strangers. Frankly speaking, i really low confidence to makes better friendship between she and i. These few facts,
1. Living style,
2. Time arrangement,
3. We're dunno our friends as well,
4. She live Puchong meanwhile i live at OUG. I dun have driving license and car also=.=
5. She often didn't reply or call me...
Oh my... I really afraid... Actually i had planned of choose a birthday present for her, but, i scared she dun accept it or even reject me for hang out...
20/11/2009, 2am... I couldn't sleep well within these few weeks since october ago. I feel like i'm still under a war, a war which had made me weak...
In last week, i can feel of my mind cant focus on the job, kept thinking of crap. My weird reaction had get attention by Jack, my colleague. zzz... I had bout time didnt experience it.
Yong ting, ur advice kept surrounding at both my ears and brain, and yet, i couldn't did it. Sry... Wat i think is, yong ting had broke friendship with me, yet, i reli appreciate wat she help me, without her, without me. Yong ting's story stopped here.
I call her, msg her, n ask her, yet, she never reply to me, at night. I really worried whether she really accept me as her friend n allowed me to know more bout her? Just now, i have a chit chat with my friend of tat girl i know recently, most of them tell me not to closed with her, due of she's smoker n rude girl, moreover often speak bad words. lol, i dun care of it. Tat's her natural attitude, i like it. But, i wonder she may accept me as her friend or no... She look really like Shu Yee, my ex-supervisor. Look 80% same, also often scold bad word and impolite.
She told me of she read my blog last night, the content said she still consider of we're still strangers. Frankly speaking, i really low confidence to makes better friendship between she and i. These few facts,
1. Living style,
2. Time arrangement,
3. We're dunno our friends as well,
4. She live Puchong meanwhile i live at OUG. I dun have driving license and car also=.=
5. She often didn't reply or call me...
Oh my... I really afraid... Actually i had planned of choose a birthday present for her, but, i scared she dun accept it or even reject me for hang out...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Crazy night XD
It was 19th november, 4am. I couldn't slp.
Just now, i go hang out with new friends, Evaline and Ming. Guess where they go? Pub. I guess whoever wouldn't imagine i go pub with friends. I had long never drink beer, even last month annual dinner, i refuse to drink any alcohol.
I felt sry of make them bored, coz i dun have ideas or topics to chat, i only have thoughts of find a nice gf & how to makes family lives better. Paiseh...
At morning 12am, i kept chat with my friend, angelyn, she looks really sad recently... I also feel painful of how she feel. I really sry of makes her sleep with late time. Hope she recover soon...
Just now, i go hang out with new friends, Evaline and Ming. Guess where they go? Pub. I guess whoever wouldn't imagine i go pub with friends. I had long never drink beer, even last month annual dinner, i refuse to drink any alcohol.
I felt sry of make them bored, coz i dun have ideas or topics to chat, i only have thoughts of find a nice gf & how to makes family lives better. Paiseh...
At morning 12am, i kept chat with my friend, angelyn, she looks really sad recently... I also feel painful of how she feel. I really sry of makes her sleep with late time. Hope she recover soon...
Monday, November 16, 2009
HANDPHONE FREAK III
Good day. Today, i'll share some info to u all.
Since long time ago until today, we known of we'll purchase either authorised original set or AP sets at Malaysia. Wat's different between authorised original sets and AP sets?
Authorised original set is genuine original sets & 100% approved by authorised dealer in Malaysia such as Zitron, Thorus, etc. and it uses only 100% genuine parts to assemble, meanwhile AP (Approved Permit) is doesn't approved by authorised dealer, and instead it brings to Malaysia through dealers such as Final Choice, COSMAT, TS, and much much more! And since 2007, a lot of dealer recondition those 2nd hand handsets and sell it as new sets. We call those sets as "Recon Sets" usually, and those dealer sell it as "new" AP sets. In other words, they sell old sets as new sets, and old sets cant be guaranteed in terms of quality.
If u purchase authorised original sets, u can get natiowide warranty and it only 100%genuine parts assembled and replaced for warranty. When u purchase AP sets, u can only claim warranty from the shop u purchase only, and also limited warranty, such as no warranty for touchscreen, no warranty for software, and also, AP dealers can exclaim of it had damaged by water thus void warranty due of the AP dealer known of the certain recon sets had damaged by water but they wouldn't tell the truth of sure. Tat's y a lot of ppl encourage to purchase authorised sets for better coverage.
These was authorised dealer for mobile phone in Malaysia,
Nokia: Zitron, Avaxx
Sony Ericsson: Thorus, Midland, MCM(accessory)
Samsung: FMG(First Mobile Group)
LG: Zitron
HTC: SIS
Motorola: Brightstar, Action
How to identify it was authorised original sets?
1. At the back of handphone, battery and charger, must have authorised sticker. otherwise like "Final Choice", "COSMAT" sticker is comfirm AP sets.
2. The Serial Number (15-digit number) listed at back of handphone is must same as written at boxes provided, and same with written at screen as u type *#06# If either 1 party is not same, it not consider as Authorised original sets
3. The warranty card must be "Nokia", "Sony Ericsson" and with Authorised dealer's stamp. If provided with "TS", "COSMAT" etc, those was AP sets.
Since long time ago until today, we known of we'll purchase either authorised original set or AP sets at Malaysia. Wat's different between authorised original sets and AP sets?
Authorised original set is genuine original sets & 100% approved by authorised dealer in Malaysia such as Zitron, Thorus, etc. and it uses only 100% genuine parts to assemble, meanwhile AP (Approved Permit) is doesn't approved by authorised dealer, and instead it brings to Malaysia through dealers such as Final Choice, COSMAT, TS, and much much more! And since 2007, a lot of dealer recondition those 2nd hand handsets and sell it as new sets. We call those sets as "Recon Sets" usually, and those dealer sell it as "new" AP sets. In other words, they sell old sets as new sets, and old sets cant be guaranteed in terms of quality.
If u purchase authorised original sets, u can get natiowide warranty and it only 100%genuine parts assembled and replaced for warranty. When u purchase AP sets, u can only claim warranty from the shop u purchase only, and also limited warranty, such as no warranty for touchscreen, no warranty for software, and also, AP dealers can exclaim of it had damaged by water thus void warranty due of the AP dealer known of the certain recon sets had damaged by water but they wouldn't tell the truth of sure. Tat's y a lot of ppl encourage to purchase authorised sets for better coverage.
These was authorised dealer for mobile phone in Malaysia,
Nokia: Zitron, Avaxx
Sony Ericsson: Thorus, Midland, MCM(accessory)
Samsung: FMG(First Mobile Group)
LG: Zitron
HTC: SIS
Motorola: Brightstar, Action
How to identify it was authorised original sets?
1. At the back of handphone, battery and charger, must have authorised sticker. otherwise like "Final Choice", "COSMAT" sticker is comfirm AP sets.
2. The Serial Number (15-digit number) listed at back of handphone is must same as written at boxes provided, and same with written at screen as u type *#06# If either 1 party is not same, it not consider as Authorised original sets
3. The warranty card must be "Nokia", "Sony Ericsson" and with Authorised dealer's stamp. If provided with "TS", "COSMAT" etc, those was AP sets.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
HANDPHONE FREAK II
this morning, at last, i nvr go gathering, due of i keep investigate the theory. wat's theory?
1. rumor of handphone can be modem.
yes, it's true, it can be modem. u can connect via USB or bluetooth. i'd tried it and it a success. i can even received call and play music with external speaker while i connect with pc via bluetooth. but, i prefer charging it instead of listen songs, due of battery exhaust fast. there's basic requirement of handphone needs to be modem.
-at least 2G(GPRS), with USB or bluetooth connectivity. its recommended by use either 3G or 3.5G(HSDPA)
2. how fast the speed?
it's depends, i using K810i, with 3G connectivity. i use digi operator, and yet i feel it ok for normal internet user, included me.
3. was it can play online games such as maplestory, gunbound, etc?
it's still a theory and yet i didnt play any online games since i got gf and i stopped play even i broke up untill now. i never play online games. thus, i dun think i can gives answers instantly.
well, i also moody again... u know wat i moody for la... really hoping...
1. rumor of handphone can be modem.
yes, it's true, it can be modem. u can connect via USB or bluetooth. i'd tried it and it a success. i can even received call and play music with external speaker while i connect with pc via bluetooth. but, i prefer charging it instead of listen songs, due of battery exhaust fast. there's basic requirement of handphone needs to be modem.
-at least 2G(GPRS), with USB or bluetooth connectivity. its recommended by use either 3G or 3.5G(HSDPA)
2. how fast the speed?
it's depends, i using K810i, with 3G connectivity. i use digi operator, and yet i feel it ok for normal internet user, included me.
3. was it can play online games such as maplestory, gunbound, etc?
it's still a theory and yet i didnt play any online games since i got gf and i stopped play even i broke up untill now. i never play online games. thus, i dun think i can gives answers instantly.
well, i also moody again... u know wat i moody for la... really hoping...
do u agree my theory?
14th of November, 4am. I still can't slp, due of i can't accept the "facts". Anyway, Today is Looi Siew Yee's birthday. wish siew yee happy birthday.
it's been 5 months. frankly speaking, i kinda tired of living in "polluted" city. no matter i try my best to communicate with them, try to get closer with them, and yet, i only can feel of the gap is getting widen. such a pity incident. "my parent's thought u wan propose me" "i got bf, and he dun like u call often" "i dun like to chat with chess freak" PUI!!! crap! it's all nonsense. BL, TJH, PJH, KL, and all buddy, do u agree?
i kinda disappointed of wat tracy, vivian & eve's think, it's sickening me, i know tis were not a professional's think, but, i think they shouldn't think things badly.
in these 5 month, i had sacrifice my time, money, and spirit, try my best to communicate with them, try to closer with them with my sincerity. i try to spend more my time to learn certain things i should learn, included IT. i had stopped my business for couple of months, and changed to postpaid, and changed to office job, it make me really uncomfortable. i used to equipped bluetooth everyday, but now i really not fitted yet. no matter how i bz, i'm sure i'll care every1 i concern. i'm keep trying to improved myself to become person more professional in many ways, was just for ppl i care, but the didn't accept my help, afterall. well, it's bad result. it only widen the gap between those with me.
only few person had closed with me after i tried my best. chi wai, jun hui, was few of them. since last year, i had lost control and finally i broke friendship with chi wai. i really thx of his forgiveness and we still can chat as usual. haha, everyday scold tis scold tat, make me feel like brother's argue. yeah, last few day was my "dai lou" jun hui birthday, i had long time nvr c he can make some joke. of coz included raymond chow, ryan wong, chin kuan, jackson, and most of them. i really grateful of ken low, my tmn yarl classmate & chessplayer. he was 1 of my gd friend. he inform me instantly as he changed his new number, he always did things initialtive. really proud of have such nice friend. i think tis wat we called "brothers".
last month, i visit jeffrey, action staff, my ex-employer, i used to under jeffrey bout 1 year. wat he told me was right, "while we boys try his best to get closer with the girl he likes by do watever positives, the gril still won't realised and instead she will go looking for other guy and stick the fellow. girls always say 1 then do other 1, it won't changed. example of 'girl say may willing of try to create love feeling by start new relationship life but she refused to do it when it really start'" ya, it true also, tat's wat i think all the time. i ask him when he married with his gf, then he only said when relationship get closer until max lvl then married. oh boy, he had "pak toh" for long time ady lor...
i wonder wat yong ting doing? was she done well? who knows? i had stop contact with her since broke friendship wuth her 8years ago. she's the 1 who advice me to have positive thinking, i really useless... i still can't acheived it. alice yee? fuck her off la!!! i can't stand of lying story she create. if she not owe my money, i wont talk with her. she is SOTB!
these few months, i stop to listen the chinese song "little dimples", and instead i listen japanese song, "rage your dream", the only japanese song i can understand much. i keep listen rage your dream, coz, it keep remind me to keep my works to achieve wat i wan. although my dream have a lot, and sometimes i also feel despair, but i'll regain my spirit as i chat with elise, cindy, chin wai, and few, or when i listen "rage your dream". and sometimes, i'll yell "I WANNA RAGE MY DREAM!"
chi wai, relationship is quite commotion de la. i also experienced b4, wat i can advice u, try dun overfocus on it like wat i did now as it may affect ur study. even i had feel of wanted have a nice gf, i only can wait. further more, recently some of my friend always moody, everyday i had try to advice them. how come i got extra time to find gf?
as u know, my bike just changed new tyre, but, becoz i really can't face the "fact" just now, which was "while we boys try his best to get closer with the girl he likes by do watever positives, the gril still won't realised and instead she will go looking for other guy and stick the fellow. girls always say 1 then do other 1, it won't changed." i were hoping of she give me chance to let me try my best to propose her, but she refused through phone. i really stunned...
i really cant face the "fact" twice, i went out with bike, keep cycle everywhere, from oug to happy garden, then to sri petaling. keep exhaust my energy. frankly speaking, i really hate girls lying. y they wanted to lie? i really dun get it. if i lie with u, u also bo shuang, right? then, when i realised, i crashed again. while downhill, i brake and turn left and created "understeer". holy shit! it doesn't obey me and crashed to road. luckily i still ok. i know i'm too emo, but, my spirit is weak...
later, i'll go to school for wat jun hoe n ken call "gathering". hope i can meet every1 i wish to c.
at last, - BRUDDER, LET's RAGE OUR DREAM! -
it's been 5 months. frankly speaking, i kinda tired of living in "polluted" city. no matter i try my best to communicate with them, try to get closer with them, and yet, i only can feel of the gap is getting widen. such a pity incident. "my parent's thought u wan propose me" "i got bf, and he dun like u call often" "i dun like to chat with chess freak" PUI!!! crap! it's all nonsense. BL, TJH, PJH, KL, and all buddy, do u agree?
i kinda disappointed of wat tracy, vivian & eve's think, it's sickening me, i know tis were not a professional's think, but, i think they shouldn't think things badly.
in these 5 month, i had sacrifice my time, money, and spirit, try my best to communicate with them, try to closer with them with my sincerity. i try to spend more my time to learn certain things i should learn, included IT. i had stopped my business for couple of months, and changed to postpaid, and changed to office job, it make me really uncomfortable. i used to equipped bluetooth everyday, but now i really not fitted yet. no matter how i bz, i'm sure i'll care every1 i concern. i'm keep trying to improved myself to become person more professional in many ways, was just for ppl i care, but the didn't accept my help, afterall. well, it's bad result. it only widen the gap between those with me.
only few person had closed with me after i tried my best. chi wai, jun hui, was few of them. since last year, i had lost control and finally i broke friendship with chi wai. i really thx of his forgiveness and we still can chat as usual. haha, everyday scold tis scold tat, make me feel like brother's argue. yeah, last few day was my "dai lou" jun hui birthday, i had long time nvr c he can make some joke. of coz included raymond chow, ryan wong, chin kuan, jackson, and most of them. i really grateful of ken low, my tmn yarl classmate & chessplayer. he was 1 of my gd friend. he inform me instantly as he changed his new number, he always did things initialtive. really proud of have such nice friend. i think tis wat we called "brothers".
last month, i visit jeffrey, action staff, my ex-employer, i used to under jeffrey bout 1 year. wat he told me was right, "while we boys try his best to get closer with the girl he likes by do watever positives, the gril still won't realised and instead she will go looking for other guy and stick the fellow. girls always say 1 then do other 1, it won't changed. example of 'girl say may willing of try to create love feeling by start new relationship life but she refused to do it when it really start'" ya, it true also, tat's wat i think all the time. i ask him when he married with his gf, then he only said when relationship get closer until max lvl then married. oh boy, he had "pak toh" for long time ady lor...
i wonder wat yong ting doing? was she done well? who knows? i had stop contact with her since broke friendship wuth her 8years ago. she's the 1 who advice me to have positive thinking, i really useless... i still can't acheived it. alice yee? fuck her off la!!! i can't stand of lying story she create. if she not owe my money, i wont talk with her. she is SOTB!
these few months, i stop to listen the chinese song "little dimples", and instead i listen japanese song, "rage your dream", the only japanese song i can understand much. i keep listen rage your dream, coz, it keep remind me to keep my works to achieve wat i wan. although my dream have a lot, and sometimes i also feel despair, but i'll regain my spirit as i chat with elise, cindy, chin wai, and few, or when i listen "rage your dream". and sometimes, i'll yell "I WANNA RAGE MY DREAM!"
chi wai, relationship is quite commotion de la. i also experienced b4, wat i can advice u, try dun overfocus on it like wat i did now as it may affect ur study. even i had feel of wanted have a nice gf, i only can wait. further more, recently some of my friend always moody, everyday i had try to advice them. how come i got extra time to find gf?
as u know, my bike just changed new tyre, but, becoz i really can't face the "fact" just now, which was "while we boys try his best to get closer with the girl he likes by do watever positives, the gril still won't realised and instead she will go looking for other guy and stick the fellow. girls always say 1 then do other 1, it won't changed." i were hoping of she give me chance to let me try my best to propose her, but she refused through phone. i really stunned...
i really cant face the "fact" twice, i went out with bike, keep cycle everywhere, from oug to happy garden, then to sri petaling. keep exhaust my energy. frankly speaking, i really hate girls lying. y they wanted to lie? i really dun get it. if i lie with u, u also bo shuang, right? then, when i realised, i crashed again. while downhill, i brake and turn left and created "understeer". holy shit! it doesn't obey me and crashed to road. luckily i still ok. i know i'm too emo, but, my spirit is weak...
later, i'll go to school for wat jun hoe n ken call "gathering". hope i can meet every1 i wish to c.
at last, - BRUDDER, LET's RAGE OUR DREAM! -
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
My tempered released... Scary feeling...
These 2 day, something abnormal happened my family... I really sad... I lost my mind control... And then, i scold my friend badly... I hope mei ting will forgive me of wat i scold...
Saturday, November 7, 2009
shocked...
on thursday, while i made blogging, i view facebook also. but, i saw something i dun really wan to see. i wouldn't believe my friend could lie to me, even i believe them much. y they wan to such things, simply lie and lie, we're human, not robot, if they lying, u also dun like, right? tat day, i had no intention to share my feeling by blogging and instead i go to training even almost late night. my reckless action made my right hand pain till strengthless, finally... sigh, i too emo ady...
Thursday, November 5, 2009
HANDPHONE FREAK!!!
good day. welcome to phone freak blog.
recently, gt a lot ppl asked me of phone. wat i opinion is, diff ppl diff style. but, i may list a few model which ppl like most, discuss most.
1st, is nokia E71, the best business mobile. wat's special?
it was slim bar phone with QWERTY keyboard, with elegance design. although it slim, and yet it have huge battery stamina. moreover, the connection is quite wide, bluetooth with A2DP, infrared, microUSB(bundled with package), 3.5G network with front videocall, and WiFi! bluetooth with A2DP allowed u to connect with stereo bluetooth handsfree or music bluetooth speaker and make sure u can listen music with better way. if u use unlimited internet package, u can browse internet with instant speed everywhere. was it sounds good for person who complain of WiFi is effective at close range? lastly, it was 3.2 megapixel camera with autofocus with LED light, and it video recorded in mp4 format @ QVGA resolution. well, the camera is not main point, the main advantage is, the connectivity. and, it have built-in GPS antenna with A-GPS supported. A-GPS is a system which was enable connect to satelite even faster. now it priced average was RM1199, consider a worth mobile.
2nd, is sony ericsson Satio! is a lot ppl's dream phone.
it was sony ericsson's 1st symbians60 5th edition mobile phone with touch screen. it was 3.5inch wide screen with 640X360pixel resolution with 16million colour, thus it look even bright. it had bluetooth with A2DP, USB(bundled with package), 3.5G network with front videocall, WiFi, and it able to view document(such as words, excel, etc...). the connectivity is consider good. y a lot ppl is so excited of Satio? FYI, it had 12.1megapixel, with xenon flash. and got various of focus such as Auto, Macro, Face Detection. It equipped with latest Cyber-Shot system, thus the photographic is good. although it use normal image sensor(CMOS), normal image processor, and only digital zoom may made ppl unsatisfy, but, for among all cameraphone, it consider a nice mobile already. of coz i had tried Satio at 6th november, as my friend, maxicom staff allowed me to tried and share my opinion to u all. wat i feel is, it sees slightly faster than previous model, G900, but still slow compare with nokia 5800. altough got a lot of rumor tat satio got megabass, but while i try music, i cant changed the equilizer... until now, it still a theory. as i mention before, i had try Satio, i sure try the camera. although Satio's camera doesnt equipped with carl-zeiss lens or with better image sensor, but the photograph is nice. not coz of megapixel, is coz of it had better processor compare with normal cameraphone(but, i dunno wat kind of processor Satio using). currently price is RM2499. quite EXPENSIVE, right? for me, i rather purchase Sony T90, coz cmopact camera is quite cheap, and imaging quality is better than cameraphone. OUT OF TOPIC! well, if it compare with nokia N97, Satio is more worth. guess y? Satio's imaging is even bright compare with nokia N97's darkness photograph. and, who the person save photo, music, and video more than 8GB? maybe got 0.07% of whole world ppl may does, but was 32GB is really not huge enough for heavy user and they might purchase notebook than N97.
here's few of satio imaging:
fuiyooo~~~ gorgeous!
she look awesome. if i single, i sure propose her. XD (joking)
these photo had took by Satio. was it impressive? the model look gorgeous, too.
(sry of display u, ya)
3rd, is Sony Ericsson C901. a lot of ppl demand of this model.
most of sony ericsson moblie phone function is almost similar, but y it hot?
It have better sound system, u can changed the equilizer to "megabass", which made standard walkman proud of. if u listen by HPM-70/75/77, u can feel the great sound and powerful bass. and then, the connectivity is common. 3.5G network, bluetooth 2.0 with A2DP, USB 2.0(not bundled with package), it consider common among most of middle-end mobile. wat made it hot was, 5.0megapixel with Xenon Flash. Xenon Flash is quite rare for mobile phone, and Xenon Flash deliver better contrast and colour imaging compare with LED. it also have AutoFocus, Macro, Face Detection & Smile Shutter as well. it equipped with Cyber-Shot system like Twilight Protrait, Image Stabilizer, etc... and now it worth RM1000, better price compare with C903 which without Xenon Flash and equipped with LED light, instead, with price RM1199. the person will feel worth if they purchase slim C901 instead of the bulky C903.
to be continued...
recently, gt a lot ppl asked me of phone. wat i opinion is, diff ppl diff style. but, i may list a few model which ppl like most, discuss most.
1st, is nokia E71, the best business mobile. wat's special?
it was slim bar phone with QWERTY keyboard, with elegance design. although it slim, and yet it have huge battery stamina. moreover, the connection is quite wide, bluetooth with A2DP, infrared, microUSB(bundled with package), 3.5G network with front videocall, and WiFi! bluetooth with A2DP allowed u to connect with stereo bluetooth handsfree or music bluetooth speaker and make sure u can listen music with better way. if u use unlimited internet package, u can browse internet with instant speed everywhere. was it sounds good for person who complain of WiFi is effective at close range? lastly, it was 3.2 megapixel camera with autofocus with LED light, and it video recorded in mp4 format @ QVGA resolution. well, the camera is not main point, the main advantage is, the connectivity. and, it have built-in GPS antenna with A-GPS supported. A-GPS is a system which was enable connect to satelite even faster. now it priced average was RM1199, consider a worth mobile.
2nd, is sony ericsson Satio! is a lot ppl's dream phone.
it was sony ericsson's 1st symbians60 5th edition mobile phone with touch screen. it was 3.5inch wide screen with 640X360pixel resolution with 16million colour, thus it look even bright. it had bluetooth with A2DP, USB(bundled with package), 3.5G network with front videocall, WiFi, and it able to view document(such as words, excel, etc...). the connectivity is consider good. y a lot ppl is so excited of Satio? FYI, it had 12.1megapixel, with xenon flash. and got various of focus such as Auto, Macro, Face Detection. It equipped with latest Cyber-Shot system, thus the photographic is good. although it use normal image sensor(CMOS), normal image processor, and only digital zoom may made ppl unsatisfy, but, for among all cameraphone, it consider a nice mobile already. of coz i had tried Satio at 6th november, as my friend, maxicom staff allowed me to tried and share my opinion to u all. wat i feel is, it sees slightly faster than previous model, G900, but still slow compare with nokia 5800. altough got a lot of rumor tat satio got megabass, but while i try music, i cant changed the equilizer... until now, it still a theory. as i mention before, i had try Satio, i sure try the camera. although Satio's camera doesnt equipped with carl-zeiss lens or with better image sensor, but the photograph is nice. not coz of megapixel, is coz of it had better processor compare with normal cameraphone(but, i dunno wat kind of processor Satio using). currently price is RM2499. quite EXPENSIVE, right? for me, i rather purchase Sony T90, coz cmopact camera is quite cheap, and imaging quality is better than cameraphone. OUT OF TOPIC! well, if it compare with nokia N97, Satio is more worth. guess y? Satio's imaging is even bright compare with nokia N97's darkness photograph. and, who the person save photo, music, and video more than 8GB? maybe got 0.07% of whole world ppl may does, but was 32GB is really not huge enough for heavy user and they might purchase notebook than N97.
here's few of satio imaging:
fuiyooo~~~ gorgeous!
she look awesome. if i single, i sure propose her. XD (joking)
these photo had took by Satio. was it impressive? the model look gorgeous, too.
(sry of display u, ya)
3rd, is Sony Ericsson C901. a lot of ppl demand of this model.
most of sony ericsson moblie phone function is almost similar, but y it hot?
It have better sound system, u can changed the equilizer to "megabass", which made standard walkman proud of. if u listen by HPM-70/75/77, u can feel the great sound and powerful bass. and then, the connectivity is common. 3.5G network, bluetooth 2.0 with A2DP, USB 2.0(not bundled with package), it consider common among most of middle-end mobile. wat made it hot was, 5.0megapixel with Xenon Flash. Xenon Flash is quite rare for mobile phone, and Xenon Flash deliver better contrast and colour imaging compare with LED. it also have AutoFocus, Macro, Face Detection & Smile Shutter as well. it equipped with Cyber-Shot system like Twilight Protrait, Image Stabilizer, etc... and now it worth RM1000, better price compare with C903 which without Xenon Flash and equipped with LED light, instead, with price RM1199. the person will feel worth if they purchase slim C901 instead of the bulky C903.
to be continued...
get scolded.....
tuesday night, i get scolded by cindy... wat she said was true... then i just be silent...
wat i rmb is, "u still think things negatives all the time, nvr have improvement..." ya... i still never grow, like a naive kid... even i know, i shouldn't such low mood coz of girls, yet, i couldn't find other way to cure myself.
i think whole night, i still only have small idea... i should be calm in these times...
wat i rmb is, "u still think things negatives all the time, nvr have improvement..." ya... i still never grow, like a naive kid... even i know, i shouldn't such low mood coz of girls, yet, i couldn't find other way to cure myself.
i think whole night, i still only have small idea... i should be calm in these times...
Sunday, November 1, 2009
new lifes comes, brand new challange!
finally, i had resign as retail assistant at mid valley. to all my friend who brought thing with me at sony outlet, sry of i no longer able to serve u, all the best to u all!
ytd i kinda suprised of they brought pizza, i never experience "farewell party" b4, since i start work. seriously, i feel uncomfortable to leave foto shangri-la. at there, i experienced a lot of things i never faced b4. and yet, i gained knowledge(although is not much...). thanks to kok wei, darren, lyon, joyce, jack, joshua, stanley, and kelvin. all the best to u all!
after today, i'll start work with office hour. i'll be free at sat & sun. well, i knda feel tired of waiting for "her", i started tired, afterall. i feel i wanted to find a nice girl, but, will it success? i hope when i request her, she will accept...
ytd i kinda suprised of they brought pizza, i never experience "farewell party" b4, since i start work. seriously, i feel uncomfortable to leave foto shangri-la. at there, i experienced a lot of things i never faced b4. and yet, i gained knowledge(although is not much...). thanks to kok wei, darren, lyon, joyce, jack, joshua, stanley, and kelvin. all the best to u all!
after today, i'll start work with office hour. i'll be free at sat & sun. well, i knda feel tired of waiting for "her", i started tired, afterall. i feel i wanted to find a nice girl, but, will it success? i hope when i request her, she will accept...
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
bye bye, foto
it's been a while time already. i had to leave Foto Shangri-La soon, and ready for new challange.
i realise, try to like other is even hard, as long as "she" is important to me. i know, whenever i care certain ppl, they won't appreciate and easily forget it, it sickening me... well, i dun like ppl so mean...
just now afternoon, i find "her" again, and it maybe last time for me to find her, i guess... coz i will start my new life soon... it may makes me no time to find her. well, mayb i should give up of "her", and try find better girl. mayb wat chi wai said was right, both of him and i was desperate of cares from girls and hope have a good relationship life. i admit, i really wan a nice girl to be my gf(not appearance, most important is kind heart), hope girl give me chance to allowed me to treat her better and create loves feeling between she and i.
i guess, mayb i m dreaming gua...
i realise, try to like other is even hard, as long as "she" is important to me. i know, whenever i care certain ppl, they won't appreciate and easily forget it, it sickening me... well, i dun like ppl so mean...
just now afternoon, i find "her" again, and it maybe last time for me to find her, i guess... coz i will start my new life soon... it may makes me no time to find her. well, mayb i should give up of "her", and try find better girl. mayb wat chi wai said was right, both of him and i was desperate of cares from girls and hope have a good relationship life. i admit, i really wan a nice girl to be my gf(not appearance, most important is kind heart), hope girl give me chance to allowed me to treat her better and create loves feeling between she and i.
i guess, mayb i m dreaming gua...
Friday, October 9, 2009
commotion...
its been 1/2 of a month...
well, since i meet "her" last 2 week, i feel of i cant concentrate on work, daydream of "her" while working... damn fool...
chi wai had came back from perak for bout 10 days ady, next week is last week for him stay at kl, he need go back to perak to continue study.
yesterday, 8th oct...
like usual loh, off day sure wake damn late. bout 2 pm, coz i kinda curious of "her" and wanna know how was "she", then i decide go school to visit "her". at there, i saw "she" look ok, but i can feel "she" look tired and pressured, well, i told "her" always think positive. well, i think "she" doesn't...
around 4pm, originally i had to play badminton with chi wai, but tat time wind too strong, we can't play badminton at all!!! all we do at evening is, yumcha lo... haha. and then, 6:30, chi wai go home, at same time, i had made appoint with shuk ling, my senior.
at leo's, i had dinner with her. it's been a long time didn't meet her, yet she only changed haistyle. kinda happy of she live well. if compare with most friend i met, they all frustrated of money, couple, future, but was they actually had planned all and take action? of coz, i also got think those, but i just ignore relationship life for a moment of time, coz i haven't continue my education life and haven't learn diving yet, "MONEY" is main thing i needed. well, hope shuk ling can pass her driving test... i really appreciate she accept the appointment and meet with me at time.
at late night, i couldn't slp. while i intend to have a walk outside, cindy call me regarding of things i order. she give those goods to me after the meal...
at 2am, i still can't slp. i rmb 2 years ago, again... will i can acieved my target and get wat i wanted? only god knows...
well, since i meet "her" last 2 week, i feel of i cant concentrate on work, daydream of "her" while working... damn fool...
chi wai had came back from perak for bout 10 days ady, next week is last week for him stay at kl, he need go back to perak to continue study.
yesterday, 8th oct...
like usual loh, off day sure wake damn late. bout 2 pm, coz i kinda curious of "her" and wanna know how was "she", then i decide go school to visit "her". at there, i saw "she" look ok, but i can feel "she" look tired and pressured, well, i told "her" always think positive. well, i think "she" doesn't...
around 4pm, originally i had to play badminton with chi wai, but tat time wind too strong, we can't play badminton at all!!! all we do at evening is, yumcha lo... haha. and then, 6:30, chi wai go home, at same time, i had made appoint with shuk ling, my senior.
at leo's, i had dinner with her. it's been a long time didn't meet her, yet she only changed haistyle. kinda happy of she live well. if compare with most friend i met, they all frustrated of money, couple, future, but was they actually had planned all and take action? of coz, i also got think those, but i just ignore relationship life for a moment of time, coz i haven't continue my education life and haven't learn diving yet, "MONEY" is main thing i needed. well, hope shuk ling can pass her driving test... i really appreciate she accept the appointment and meet with me at time.
at late night, i couldn't slp. while i intend to have a walk outside, cindy call me regarding of things i order. she give those goods to me after the meal...
at 2am, i still can't slp. i rmb 2 years ago, again... will i can acieved my target and get wat i wanted? only god knows...
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
boring offday...
today, i woke up damn early... i dunno y i could woke up so early... i dun have anything to do in morning, thus i just keep listen songs. well, i dun like those unknown earphones, their sound damn not nice to listen, no bass... i remember of i aqquired the HPM-77 long time ago, it sounds quite nice, yet i lost it last month. sigh...
i had rmb a lot of ppl so suddenly... chi wai, han seng, jun hui, yong ting, shirley, yong seng... quite a lot...
chi wai is my best friend, formerly... he help me a lot. i appreciate of his kindness. well, since last year 10th august, he decide to broke friendship with me. actually i dun wan, but it was coz of my easy anger and like to suspect...
yong ting is my childhood friend, i rmb of last time when standard 3 i really dunno her at all, untill 1 day while i want out to play (every kids likes to go playground or some place where can have fun to play, right?), i saw her went back to her home. at tat time, i have a feeling of i saw hear at somewhere. the afternoon after tat day, i go to school as usual, and i saw her, then i just know of she live quite near my home. when i wanted to ask her, she ask me(i forgot conversation tat time)... she's quite polite and seldom speaking, altough she is not smart girl, but she help me a lot. if she doesn't exist, maybe i even dumb than now, when i sick, she forced herself to finish homework and lend me for revision. of course i do the same thing to her. 2 years had been passed, after my birthday, she no longer friend with me. well, of course untill now i really sad of it and hope to recover the friendship between she and i, but i couldn't, coz i really forgot wat happened tat time, i really hate of 8 years event can be lost like tat!!!
shirley... well, i know her through conversation between han seng, her and me. recently, because of my naive action, i had hurt her feeling. i know she's not suit for me, but i forced myslf to propose her even i still like a girl altough tat girl still dunno it. well, of coz shirley reject. i had hurted her feeling tat time, i wonder how was she right now? was she forgive me? who knows? well, let's dun discuss of shirley.
until today, i realise wat kind of person am i. even 19 years old, i still like a naive, stupid, moron kid. most ppl is try and not forced to try, but, i am person who force myself to try everything. i not a kind of tender person and i not a gentlemen. and i like to keep everything in my mind than speak my problem to every1. coz i dun wan any1 cares of problem i facing. i work almost 2 years without continue study, and i under retail sales line almost 1 year more already, y i dun have much money?? coz i dun behave myself loh! simply waste money to purchased thing to alice, my former gf. although i like tat girl more than alice, but i act i like her, and keep waste money... watever, i kinda regret to know her, coz she keep lying. i really hate ppl lie. now i no longer friend with her, afterall
well, now is 4:00pm. i close my blog here 1st
i had rmb a lot of ppl so suddenly... chi wai, han seng, jun hui, yong ting, shirley, yong seng... quite a lot...
chi wai is my best friend, formerly... he help me a lot. i appreciate of his kindness. well, since last year 10th august, he decide to broke friendship with me. actually i dun wan, but it was coz of my easy anger and like to suspect...
yong ting is my childhood friend, i rmb of last time when standard 3 i really dunno her at all, untill 1 day while i want out to play (every kids likes to go playground or some place where can have fun to play, right?), i saw her went back to her home. at tat time, i have a feeling of i saw hear at somewhere. the afternoon after tat day, i go to school as usual, and i saw her, then i just know of she live quite near my home. when i wanted to ask her, she ask me(i forgot conversation tat time)... she's quite polite and seldom speaking, altough she is not smart girl, but she help me a lot. if she doesn't exist, maybe i even dumb than now, when i sick, she forced herself to finish homework and lend me for revision. of course i do the same thing to her. 2 years had been passed, after my birthday, she no longer friend with me. well, of course untill now i really sad of it and hope to recover the friendship between she and i, but i couldn't, coz i really forgot wat happened tat time, i really hate of 8 years event can be lost like tat!!!
shirley... well, i know her through conversation between han seng, her and me. recently, because of my naive action, i had hurt her feeling. i know she's not suit for me, but i forced myslf to propose her even i still like a girl altough tat girl still dunno it. well, of coz shirley reject. i had hurted her feeling tat time, i wonder how was she right now? was she forgive me? who knows? well, let's dun discuss of shirley.
until today, i realise wat kind of person am i. even 19 years old, i still like a naive, stupid, moron kid. most ppl is try and not forced to try, but, i am person who force myself to try everything. i not a kind of tender person and i not a gentlemen. and i like to keep everything in my mind than speak my problem to every1. coz i dun wan any1 cares of problem i facing. i work almost 2 years without continue study, and i under retail sales line almost 1 year more already, y i dun have much money?? coz i dun behave myself loh! simply waste money to purchased thing to alice, my former gf. although i like tat girl more than alice, but i act i like her, and keep waste money... watever, i kinda regret to know her, coz she keep lying. i really hate ppl lie. now i no longer friend with her, afterall
well, now is 4:00pm. i close my blog here 1st
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
time wont wait for us. we need take action asap or else u'll regret
9:00am... is my dreaming time. i had dream my mother... she tell me few of past... well, i had drop tear and woke up after tat.
It's been 5 years i couldn't hear my mother's voice... tat is 1st time, most sad for me from born untill now. when my mother passed, tat time i still a naive kid. a 14 years old youngster should be mature. in these 5 years, i seldom dream of my mom.
in these 5 years, i still have a bad habits - delay. everything delay delay delay. when exam period wat i doing? sleeping, play chess, go cc, etc... until exam day then i do revision. quite funny right? but i dun think it's funny. coz i often delay, i'm always late to my friend's/classmate's reunion. i had delay everything wat i wan to do, 19 yeard old already haven't get driving license, waste money which made me delay from save money for study, and until now i feel i cant help my family as well...... i feel shame of being a human... i had because fear to tell a girl whom i care most, today i know of she have bf(i had feel sad, but how can i do for myself? she may dunno i like her also... but no tear, afterall)...
i know tat girl since form 4, when she join to my school. tat time, i just feel normal like usual. but, after 1 year, i had become often chat with her. when SPM, i had secretly admire（暗恋） to tat girl. i think she dunno tat i had tat feeling to her...
after SPM, i had 1 year didn't contact her, due of i dun have her contact number. ah ha, when i join action, 1 day, i saw her sibblings and her walk parkson, then i simply msg to her relatives, but, she call me suddenly as she saw her relative's msg. after tat, i kinda happy of i could get her contact, in the same time, i also disappointed of she have bf. but after 2 weeks, i have gf, but tat time dun have much feeling of alice.
bout 4 months i had together with alice, she not only even naive, dumb, moreover she keep lying to me tat makes me even hate to her. then i decided to break relation with her, and finally, i even angry of wat she does and i decide to break friendship with her, at 30th of may. while i break relationship with alice, i got contact her and i'm suprised of she had no longer with bf. well, wat can i do tat time? only can treat her good by my sincere.
but today, 2:50pm, i decided to go to visit her and tell her of i likes her, but i didnt tell, because she tell me of she have bf... well, i disappointed again...
until now, 5:25pm, i feel i very tired regarding of it, even i know i not supposed to disappointed or sad of it, but i couldn't control myself...
as conclusion, i really need to take initiatives on everything in the future, i dun wan have any regrets...
It's been 5 years i couldn't hear my mother's voice... tat is 1st time, most sad for me from born untill now. when my mother passed, tat time i still a naive kid. a 14 years old youngster should be mature. in these 5 years, i seldom dream of my mom.
in these 5 years, i still have a bad habits - delay. everything delay delay delay. when exam period wat i doing? sleeping, play chess, go cc, etc... until exam day then i do revision. quite funny right? but i dun think it's funny. coz i often delay, i'm always late to my friend's/classmate's reunion. i had delay everything wat i wan to do, 19 yeard old already haven't get driving license, waste money which made me delay from save money for study, and until now i feel i cant help my family as well...... i feel shame of being a human... i had because fear to tell a girl whom i care most, today i know of she have bf(i had feel sad, but how can i do for myself? she may dunno i like her also... but no tear, afterall)...
i know tat girl since form 4, when she join to my school. tat time, i just feel normal like usual. but, after 1 year, i had become often chat with her. when SPM, i had secretly admire（暗恋） to tat girl. i think she dunno tat i had tat feeling to her...
after SPM, i had 1 year didn't contact her, due of i dun have her contact number. ah ha, when i join action, 1 day, i saw her sibblings and her walk parkson, then i simply msg to her relatives, but, she call me suddenly as she saw her relative's msg. after tat, i kinda happy of i could get her contact, in the same time, i also disappointed of she have bf. but after 2 weeks, i have gf, but tat time dun have much feeling of alice.
bout 4 months i had together with alice, she not only even naive, dumb, moreover she keep lying to me tat makes me even hate to her. then i decided to break relation with her, and finally, i even angry of wat she does and i decide to break friendship with her, at 30th of may. while i break relationship with alice, i got contact her and i'm suprised of she had no longer with bf. well, wat can i do tat time? only can treat her good by my sincere.
but today, 2:50pm, i decided to go to visit her and tell her of i likes her, but i didnt tell, because she tell me of she have bf... well, i disappointed again...
until now, 5:25pm, i feel i very tired regarding of it, even i know i not supposed to disappointed or sad of it, but i couldn't control myself...
as conclusion, i really need to take initiatives on everything in the future, i dun wan have any regrets...
Friday, July 3, 2009
its time wo woke up from nightmare
Its been a long time i being other "vincent". sometimes happy and sometimes kinda feel meaningless to having such annoy attitude. i just simply said sad, hurt, etc... actually i had no such things since my mom passed away. after 5 years of tat incident, i seldom drop my tears of small case... ppl thought i easy hurt of break or no gf. actually i not frustrated of these. wat i concern is, TIMING... time not waiting for whoever person. most of my friend already get driving license, study, but i dun have both!? wat am i doing? still working. having blind work...
well, i kinda being tired of work under action... coz salary quite low, and recently sales bad... it's not i didnt try my best to improve my sales. it's just company too straight against of price and cant nego... if not because i lost handsets TWICE, i had already left action long time and now i work under my friend. well, even i tell my family, will they able to help me? i just dun wan to tell them to avoid from worried by them... well, few of my friends know of it... they all also suggest me to change job... sigh......
well, i kinda being tired of work under action... coz salary quite low, and recently sales bad... it's not i didnt try my best to improve my sales. it's just company too straight against of price and cant nego... if not because i lost handsets TWICE, i had already left action long time and now i work under my friend. well, even i tell my family, will they able to help me? i just dun wan to tell them to avoid from worried by them... well, few of my friends know of it... they all also suggest me to change job... sigh......
Monday, May 25, 2009
broken heart... wont b heal unless i get something i desired for
it's been awhile after i break with my 1st love. i thought i can b free from relationship life. unfortunately it repeat and make me more worse...
recently i miss a girl and tried to get closer with her, even she know of she have no feel to me, yet she only test me...
in these 2 weeks, although we only meet only once, i feel of i had love her instead of likes her. after i met her, my mind keep think of her, keep miss her...i miss her until these few days couldn't sleep, begins of physical illness... yesterday she told me of i had to break with her. i really sad of it... i had long time didnt drop my tears... i even didnt have proper conversation with her... we should have long time communication to ensure whether we r match or vise versa. i sad until scold her even she under heavy stress... i reli silly... i should care her and try to less her stress as well... i reli felt sry to her... i reli sad and regret until i cry... even ill... and even couldnt slp...
recently i miss a girl and tried to get closer with her, even she know of she have no feel to me, yet she only test me...
in these 2 weeks, although we only meet only once, i feel of i had love her instead of likes her. after i met her, my mind keep think of her, keep miss her...i miss her until these few days couldn't sleep, begins of physical illness... yesterday she told me of i had to break with her. i really sad of it... i had long time didnt drop my tears... i even didnt have proper conversation with her... we should have long time communication to ensure whether we r match or vise versa. i sad until scold her even she under heavy stress... i reli silly... i should care her and try to less her stress as well... i reli felt sry to her... i reli sad and regret until i cry... even ill... and even couldnt slp...
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