我到底脑里想些什么？

昨天星期五,我在shah alam顾客的家,欣赏宴会里的食物,观赏烟花.由于下大雨,他们延迟到9点才放烟花.我早料到会下大雨,所以我没有带C901,反而带久违的K810,就这样,我没有录好.宴会结束,11点,我看手机,原来,是君妹的信息...
小君,哥很想你呢...我们已经很久没有联络了.你是我所认识的人当中少数信任的,也是我所疼的乾妹.你也知道,我非常不相信人,所以,我通常都很冷漠,只对部分的你们坦白...
回想中一时,我时常在学校只是非常冷漠,纵使盈盈在我班,我依然也是冷漠的脸色.当时的你就读在我的隔壁班.只有你,能够把冷漠的我,变成自然的自己面对信任的人前.只有你,在当我非常愤怒时,你能够把我变回冷静.人们都认为,我什么都不怕.在学校,我抱打不平,得罪古惑学生.只有你留意,我有害怕的时候;所以,每逢我有为同学朋友吵架,打架后,你都有安慰我,鼓励我.虽然,你的人不算聪明,但是,你的心非常好.我在发呆时,你偶尔会在我面前开玩笑,大部分人的玩笑对我没有作用,就是你能够,纵使我只尝试忍笑,就是败在你的笑话下.有时候,你知道我想什么,你就对症下药.你还说过,你擅长读心术,就是我这种冷漠的人很容易读出.你虽然没说出,我知道,有时候你也会觉得烦,可是你当我是你的哥哥,所以你并没有说出怨言,哥了解,所以我不会随便烦你.
最近,我喜欢的某个女生,我已经够坦白了,可是,她却不相信我.我所说的是实话,但是,她的心里是觉得,我是个乱来的人.我应该怎么做呢?

dunno is good or no la...

I finally able to sleep, at tat day... although is bout 3-4 hours, but, quite enough for me.
although i really hate kar wai, he dare to cheat his schoolmate for earn more money, summore is recon sets! tat's y outside nobody likes him (i can't said i'm good la, coz last time i had interfere their business for seeks of truth, till AP reseller dun likes me). well, since rhu yan ahd brought it and he not regret even he know the truth, nvm...

Head even pain...

Damn it... I still headache, even worst!
Yesterday I find Rhu Yan, he had changed phone, exactly is C901. He said of he brought from Kar Wai with RM700. When I heard it, I'd know Kar Wai cheat him ady. He request me to verify whether his C901 is new or recon. When he hand it to me, damn! Too light compare with usual C901. I check housing had opened b4, and the back of housing (battery part) have strong chemical smell, even my nose stuck also can smell clear. It definitely recon sets! Kar Wai, how dare u cheating again! Then, I go visit doctor, due of chemical smell had affect my head

No more contribute for telecommunication!

Today, is my last day to having seminar of sales for handphone to all juniors. Place at mid valley. I still forgot few ppl's name. They ask the reason of I decided not to follow up or research for phone. I never answer them... After finish the discussion, I saw Mr. Yew. He laughing of I pay such a big amount for order phone. He ask me reason of order phone and reason of cancel the order. I dun wan to mention it, as the deposit had paid, I can't get back if break promise... W595... Sigh... Well, the lost of tat deposit gave me challenges. I had lost job... Tat's makes me feel scared... Actually i'd made full payment, but I only said i'd paid 2/5. I dun wan let her know of I'm in trouble, I dun really needed her money, even how danger or how bad situation, I dun wan get even 1 cent from her. I bet she won't read my blog. Hope she'll even cheer...
I'm still tired... Who can cure my heart?

Meaningless stuffs

Finally 3am... 21st february 2010
I'm walk alone outside, with my weak body, at yesterday 2pm. I dun have idea. I'd face 2 problem currently...
1st, I dun like any1 not believe me, or lying to me. If they not asking, of coz I won't said anything related to the topic
2nd, I needed to find new job. Few of my friend had said of amy makes me lost job. Well, it isn't her fault. Coz, I guess she forgotten of I still under medical treatment. Is my fault as I won't face management staff if I decide not to meet her. I think she won't believe me ady, if she believe me, and she know i'm still sick, she may at least msg me via sms or facebook for regards.
I know of I should rest, as my health haven't goes better. Yet, I dun have mood to rest. Then, 1 of my buddy, who work same line with me last time, call me for job offer. I face with manager. She feel i'm cold untill shaking my body, then she order them to close air cond, and she brought coffee to me. I'd long time never treat with vip style. We sat at table, she show's appointment letter to me, with written my name. She told me of company might offer with rm1500 of basics, with office hour, and additional commission. Sounds cool, is it? But, my heart is pain... 1 of my friend rather choose AP than choose original sets, I never let AP dealer earn even I serve my friend with my loyalty. Not because i wan earn my friend's money, because i dun wan they have a chances to brought Recon Sets. Nowdays a lot of AP dealers prefer recon those 2nd hand handphones, change parts or only housing, and sell as new SP Sets. Those Reson Sets might brings more profits compare with sell as 2nd hand handphones. The main point is, I dun recommend my friends buy AP Sets, because they might have a chances to brought "2nd hand handphone" with HIGHER PRICE! It not only mean of insulting me, it also hurts me. Then, I straight away reject the manager. She said she also sympathy of my matter. She said she will wish me all the best and hope will meet someday. I really appreciate of she speak politely.
Well, I dun wan to repeat. She might won't believe me at all, I won't care whether she will read my blog or no. I won't give any explain to her of reason I left early or reason of lost job.
My eyes still open, with even hot. Cannot sleep, even with extremely tired

头疼啦...

昨天到今天凌晨,很多人一旦知道我的坏消息,不断联络我,问候我.当中,有好意,也有恶意.有人说,是那女生害我失去工作,有些人说,不应该相信她.我觉得,是自己顽固,不听妹妹的话,随便出门.我应该听妹妹的话,留在家里休养,明知身体那么差而偏偏勉强自己,装作若无其事找人.如果不找她,我也不必中抓.
凌晨,我和Est妹聊天,她说别想太多,休息为上.我和她聊到大约四点.自己再出门,我不是生气她怀疑我,我只是想知道那个主脑是谁.大约六点多,我看到我的朋友和他的女朋友.他招手叫我搭桌.他声称他吃饱了,请我吃饭.当我的手抖被他看到,他就叫他女朋友喂我吃饭.paiseh...我只好立刻叫包填肚.他只劝我,别找我口提过的那个女生,说我可能会遭殃.我说过我不会再找她了,因为朋友之间是要有"信",既然她不相信我,那我还要找她干嘛?不怕她将来会骗我吗?
那个混蛋,还假扮录影我手抖吃包的样子...我也懒得理了...

暂时要忍耐

哎...谁可以介绍更好的工作给我?我失业了...我辜负我的恩师,萧欣怡对我的栽培.我实在是无地自容...我没有面目见你了...我今天病了,我拿病假,准备休息后找雪莹妹聊.我去看医生回家,看见amy写的信息,叫我出来.我出门到餐厅后,看到经理!糟糕了...
我找雪莹后的晚上,经理"请"我出来,审问后,我也被宣布我失业了...
谁叫我那么逞强.病了还随便找人...Vincent Lee,抵死!